Sunday, December 26, 2010

Hey you guys! dec 26 2010

Sorry I haven't posted as of late, Mommy and I have been super busy.

We drove back down to our parents' places and have been staying with them, so not a lot of naughty stuff has been going on.

I woke up on christmas eve with a sore throat, and by christmas day was running a fever of about 100 degrees. It sucked! I was still able to have a really awesome christmas though. My parents got us a really nice blender that Mommy has been wanting ever since we moved in together, so she was really excited about that. She and I didn't exchange gifts because we did not have the money to do so, but we still had a really great time. I'm still recuperating from the sickness, I broke my fever last night but woke up at about 1 a.m. and basically had little ten or fifteen minute naps all night long.......But, at least the fever is gone. I feel a whole lot better, just in case you were wondering!

We decide before we left not to take the chastity cage with us, just because we were not going to have much privacy, so I've been enjoying more freedom than usual! :P

hmmm..Okay, back to christmas presents. I think my favorite gift was one from Mommy's parents. I opened it up and was flabbergasted, because I had been looking at it a few days ago at barnes and noble and couldn't afford to get it for myself.

So now I've got some awesome brain melting reading material!
What was your favorite gift, that you either gave or received? Let me know!

Friday, December 17, 2010

december 17, 2010.

well we ended up not seeing TRON legacy last night.
Mommy slammed her finger in the door of the apartment as we were leaving, and it was REALLY hurting her. I was kind of worried that she might've broken it, but it seems to be just extra swollen and hurty. Hope she gets better soon. :)

Thursday, December 16, 2010

december 16, 2010.

Just posting, to post.

Finals are done and we have a few things we're going to do today. We had enough money yesterday to buy tickets to go see TRON Legacy, but Mommy hasn't seen the original so I'm going to make her watch it today before we go.

Probably going to go look at christmas lights tonight too, that ought to be fun.

enjoying my freedom, but the frustration and horniness is still there, what with the not being allowed to touch anymore. Will update if anything fun happens tonight!

Just got done watching TRON. Love that Movie.

Mommy went to the restroom to start getting ready for later, and I had an idea.

as some of you may remember, I have a...well, a set of rules that I agreed to in a contract.

well, I figured after last night I would write up an addendum, to show Mommy that I'm serious.

So the new rules (they may be a bit redundant) are as follows:
1) Boy does not have a cock. He may not refer to his penis as a "cock", "dick", or any regular "man" term. Acceptable phrases are up to Mommy's discretion. (cocklette, etc)
2) Because Boy does not have a cock, it is understood that Mommy will most likely seek out a Cock to please her. IF boy is allowed to fuck Mommy, he will wear protection, and is not to orgasm without permission.
3) Boy is NEVER to stroke himself. He is NOT to bring himself to orgasm of his own accord unless specifically told so by Mommy. He is not to ask to touch. If he should ask, be caught touching, or unable to prove he was not touching when Mommy suspects he was, he is subject to punishment.
4)boy must try to keep his physical appearance at its peak for Mommy.
5) Mommy may allow boy to play with other males, but his cocklette is NOT to penetrate ANYTHING unless given specific permission by Mommy or someone whom Mommy has put in charge of boy.
6) Boy will try his best to be good and must not assume that he will be allowed to make a boycum. If he asks, and Mommy is unhappy with his performance, he may be subject to punishment.
7) Any rules that Mommy may see fit to add to the rules set out for boy are hereby agreed to, pending signature of both boy and Mommy.

Signed_______Me!_________(Boy)     12-16-10
Signed______Her!________(Mommy) 12- 16-10

I'm excited, and hope that the new rules will help me be a better boy for Mommy.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

december 15th, 2010

15 followers? On the 15th?


not much going on today. Mommy's been kind of sick (super lucky I got let out last night) so we've been taking it easy, and I have a final in about a half hour for one of my classes and then I'm done! :D

Oh, anybody from fetlife, remember to ask kinky santa for presents! They're giving away over $15,000 worth of toys from all of their advertisers and supporters to all of us!


Mommy and I went out to eat (courtesy of her Mom) to celebrate our finals being done. On the way back home she said she needed to run an errand and that I should run upstairs and get the cash for her, and she would go. I jokingly asked if she wanted me to be naked and blindfolded when she got home and to my surprise she said "Yes."

I ran upstairs and got her the money, then ran back upstairs to get ready. I wasn't totally naked because it was collllllld, but I put on my collar, buckled on my ballgag, and slipped on one of our cuffs, before lowering the blindfold down and then velcro the other cuff around my wrist.

I laid there for what seemed like an hour. Every car I heard pass by was hers, and my heart would go aflutter. Finally I heard the distinctive sound of HER car and I knew for sure that she was here...I could hear the stairs outside of our apartment doing their usual creak, creaking as she made her way up and unlocked the door.

She walked into the bedroom and gave me an "awwwwwwwwww" and then commented on how good of a boy I was being, and how I even had my collar on. Mommy laid down next to me and started running her hands over my legs, commenting on the smoothness (although she has previously said that she doesn't like it very much and would rather have me not shave my legs) and kissing my cheek.

I asked......well, mumbled...through the gag for her to please take off my cage she asked me what I was saying, giggling. It was pretty obvious she know but I repeated myself "wiww oo peease tage off muh caye mo-my?"

She smiled and removed it slowly, and started touching my (at this time) cock. At this point we noticed I was a bit chaffed, but not near enough to make me want to ask her to slow her advances. I was huffing and puffing and she smiled and leaned forward and unbuckled the ballgag. My jaw felt so weird, I don't think I'd ever worn it for that long before. Mommy started stroking me, and I was already getting all drippy. She made sure to comment on that, and then she leaned in really close and said "I hope you don't think you're going to cum tonight, because after I get done teasing you, you're going back in your cage."

I whimpered softly.

She straddled me, and I started grinding against her, trying to feel her against me....

I asked her if she would please fuck me and she said "no."

I asked "Why?"

"because you have a little bitty boy cock, and Mommy's pussy is only for real men with real big cocks."

"y...yes Ma'am....."

the grinding and straddling continued, and I decided that It was time to maybe dig my own grave a bit.

I asked her sheepishly "d....don't you think it's unfair to all big ....cocks...that you're comparing me to them?'t we...maybe call it something else....?"

" mean like....hmmmm..what was it you called it the other day? a cocklet?"

"y....yes Ma' you like...that....word?"

Mommy smiled at me and said yes, that she did like it, very much.

I then started to dig my grave a little more and told her about some of the rules I had read for boys from a Master on lockedm4m (and actually on blogger too) I said "you know that Master I was talking about who has all those boys?"


"well he said that uhm...for is totally passive. They don't have they don't get to fuck...they get fucked......e....e...even w...with uhm...other boys..they don't get to touch or anything like a real man would either....."

"hmmm. so if I let you go play with another boy, you should be locked up, hmmm?"

"o....only if you wanted me to be......oh...and uhm...he says...for his boys....that they're only allowed to ....uhm....make boycums...if they have something in their....boyhole...."

this continued, and Mommy asked me if I wanted to be like one of those boys. I nodded softly, and hid my face because I was super embarrassed. We snuggled some more and Mommy let me grind against her soft legs, but could tell I was getting too excited and pushed me off, telling me to calm down.

we laid together, talking about how her boy's life may change in the near future. We talked about things that we may do....I asked her if she really meant all that stuff she said earlier, and she asked "What stuff?"

"you know...about my uh....cocklet...and not being allowed to fuck you and sttuff anymore....."

"well of course, babyboy! you might get to feel Mommy's pussy if you're a VERY VERY good boy and I just REALLY want you to fuck me..."

I gulped nervously in my head, but my cocklet was saying otherwise (even writing this right now has got me all excited and probably drippy again). then she sat up and said "well I really have some stuff to do..." and got up to get dressed.

the chaffing is a little worse than I thought, but it's only two small spot on the underside of my shaft. I told Mommy that if she wanted I could just wear the hard plastic cage and it wouldn't be as bad on the chafing. I think it was a combo of having shaved the other day and getting a bump or two on the shaft of my cocklet, and having not lubed enough while in the cage. Lube/lotion/etc is VERY important when you're a locked boy! Mommy's letting me have the night free, as long as I promise to be a good boy, which I did. I love her so much, I'm the luckiest boy in the whole wide world!

soooooo, that was my day! how was yours!?

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

december 14, 2010

got to spend some quality time with Mommy today.

Even got an orgasm.

We talked a bit about her trying some new things, things she hasn't told me she was into yet, and all sorts of stuff. All mushy gushy, I know you guys don't want to hear about it. :P

was allowed an orgasm and going to go back into the cage after I shower in a few minutes.

Don't know how long it will be until the next one is.

Monday, December 13, 2010

december 13, 2010

I have been contemplating whether or not to post the pictures I took from last night.
Like I said, his cock is disproportionately big. I expected him to have such a cute little cock when we first played, and he pulled his boxers down and all I could think about was sucking him. In fact, right now that's pretty much all I'm thinking about as well. :D

actually, every time I come back and look at this post, all I can think about is sucking his cock. I really need a dom guy right now! :D

I imagine if anyone enjoyed seeing me locked up, they'd LOVE these two.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

december 12, 2010.

The guy I had kinda wanted to see.... Remember Him?

He's been asking me to come over and study, and seeing as our test is tomorrow, I decided to meet up with him at his place and get some studying in.

We had been hitting the books pretty hard, and after an hour or so decided it was about time for us to take a break. I leaned back in the chair and stretched, yawning. ( I didn't sleep well last night. I was way too excited about my legs!)

He hinted at being able to give me a massage, and then said  "....but I have to shower.......I could give you a massage IN the shower..."

"shit. Do I tell him?......."  My brain was going crazy...what do I do?

"uhm....well....Remember when I told you I was really really kinky?"


"well uhm...One of the things that gets me off is uhm...ironically...chastity...."


"and uh, well one of the cages I have....[Mommy] picked it so it's's Pink."

"oh. I like pink!"

"well yeah, so that would hinder our fun in the shower"

He then decided that he was going to have some fun at my expense, and got on his bed and started rubbing my shoulders. He got up after a few minutes and turned off the lights, and switched his computer off, and returned back to the spot behind me. taking his shirt off and rubbing my shoulders some more...He began to slip his hands inside of my shirt and rub my chest, and started unbuttoning my shirt. He laid himself down on the bed and motioned for me to straddle him, so I did and started kissing his neck while he slipped his boxers off and began to rub his cock against my stomach....after a few minutes of this, we switched places and I got a lovely picture of his lovely hard cock and balls next to my caged bits. We kissed, he rubbed himself against me, and much fun was had.

Eventually I told him to lie down, and made my way to his cock. He's got a disproportionately large cock. Nice and thick too. I wrapped my lips around him and took him in my mouth and after just a few minutes he pulled me back up to him an I asked him if he wanted to come for me. He nodded, whimpering a bit.

I told him I wanted to see him come, and he smiled, spinning over onto his stomach, and began grinding on the bed.  He told me the only way he can come is if he's grinding on the bed, and I told him how much he looked like a naughty little puppy, as I...mounted him, and whispered into his ear, encouraging him. I moved back a little, and started rubbing his bottom and his thighs, and he started humping the bed faster.

He spun around super fast and then started stroking himself and came all over his tummy and chest. It was wonderful.

Can't wait to play again.

Saturday, December 11, 2010

december 11, 2010

I just shaved my legs for the first time ever. It took FOREVER and I didn't even get to do my ass. I was worried that my downstairs neighbors might've thought I OD'd in the shower and called the cops.

Mommy's been asleep since before I got in the shower, so it's a surprise. Nobody tell her!

mmmmmmmm. I shaved and shaved and shaved and with every stroke of the razor there was less boy and more girl. :P
feeling totally feminine right now, I even lotioned up my legs afterwards like mommy does to help keep from getting razorburn, and boy does that lotion feel good.

here are some pictures for you, dear reader. I decided to try and recreate the ones from the other night, so you could my transition from locked up little boy to locked up little sissy. Fuck that sounds hot. mm!

hope you guys enjoy the pictures as much as I enjoyed making them!

Friday, December 10, 2010

december 10, 2010

today was fairly boring. No classes, finals are next week, spent the day cleaning the apartment with Mommy as he family is going to swing by tomorrow.

I think our neighbors got evicted...that sucks.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

december 9th, 2010. A milestone.

this is my second/third day in chastity. well second day, third night if that makes sense.

apparently not being able to get any erection at all is a lot more sexually frustrating than if you were allowed a partial one. I get excited, the silicon gets tight and that makes me more excited. I feel as giddy as a schoolgirl.
(also, on a side note. Mommy went to a party like last year where some girl was ending her time as a surprise party holder, and everything was half off. we have a lot of toys, but I never could use them)
Mommy is in class right now and about a half hour ago I asked if I could play with some toys, and she said Yes. Playing with toys is still masturbating, even if I'm locked up so I have to ask.

here's something you should know. I'm a butt virgin. Never been with a guy who was a top, never been able to fuck myself with toys except for my prostate massager. I even have a small jelly plug(not exactly mine, but close) that I've tried to use before, but if I go a while without using it, it hurts. In other words, my ass is tight.

I decided that today was the day. I was so fucking horny, and still feeling super girly from taking all those pictures and wearing those G String panties all day yesterday. So I asked Mommy really nicely, and then went and found the Silky Stud. He's cute, not too big, and he's curved juuuuuuust right.

I threw a towel down on the bed and laid myself down. I lubed myself up with some H20 JO and slowly starting pushing the Stud against me. MMMMM he felt so big. I knew it wasn't going to slide right in, so I relaxed myself, opened up a bit and got the tip of the head in......I had to push my weight against myself to push the rest of him in and oooooooh he was hurting me, but it felt great and I kept on going. Slowly but surely, I got most of him inside me....I could feel it in my tummy, and in my caged cock....the tingles, like when my prostate was getting hit, but I knew it wasn't.  I knew if I was unlocked I'd be so hard, and dripping wet right now. Now is where it gets interesting. The stud is inside me, hurting a little but feeling great a lot. I slide my hand down and turn the base and he starts vibrating inside me, sending pleasure all throughout my body. It was as if every single nerve in my body had been moved to my little boy hole, and I was in heaven. I think the neighbors may have heard me (but now that I think about it, they're all at work) but I didn't care. I was moaning and writhing, and started moving him back and forth slowly...letting myself relax even more around his thickness.

this is when The Stud started to fuck me. I could tell I was relaxed, and he started sliding in and out of my wet little hole, using it like the fucktoy it is. He felt so good. His cock has got these ribs all around it, and feeling him penetrating me over and over and over again felt absolutely amazing. I'm pretty sure if anyone was outside my apartment they would have thought that same strange woman had broken in and henceforth proceeded to get fucked, because I was moaning and acting like such a girl I think. Feeling the cock inside me, looking down and seeing that I don't even have a cock (at the moment).....only pink...feminine.....definitely not the big masculine guy I am in my outward appearance. I turned and laid on my side, and he started fucking me harder..I could feel my caged cock....the feeling you only get when you're being penetrated, or having your prostate hit....the tingling, the movement...the oh gods inside my urethra making me go insane.

That's when the stud pulled me off of the bed and took me into the shower...I was pinned up against the wall, my caged parts hanging there exposed while he fucked me as hard as I could take it. I could feel the warm water splashing against me as he entered me over and over again and I was going nuts......

the Stud must have had his fun, because he left and I was in the shower alone, washing up.

I had never been able to take anything more than my prostate massager without physical pain before, but today the stud made me his little bitch, and I can't wait for our next date. xoxo.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

december 8th 2010 again!

yay I have a new subscriber!

thanks for reading Panda's Property!

just a quick update for everyone, the birdlocked mini is really really emasculating, even more than the 6000. First off you're not even allowed the partial erection you got before, and in my case...this one is pink.

so, I give you some pictures and hope you like them.

I'd like to make this a regular thing, and posted some before, but I don't think I ever got any feedback, so......any is appreciated.
                                                                Earlier today, feeling girly
And Later after my shower, feeling more Girly than before. Mommy loves these panties.

december 8th, 2010.

so in the past I pretty much all but threw out the birdlocked mini. I think a lot of the problem with the mini was the nocturnal pain. I went right back into the mini after not being in chastity for a while, and my penis said "nay nay!"

so, on a lark, I'm giving it a try again. I'd been locked in the 6000 since last night, and decided to snap the birdlocked on again and see what happened.

comfort is key, and during the day the birdlocked rocks. The nocturnal erections I was getting because of either the smaller diameter of the base or the smaller cage portion for my penis will hopefully not be a recurring problem.

plus mommy loves that it's pink.

Monday, November 29, 2010

sorry about that!

I've been super busy what with school, the thanksgiving holidays, and everything else going on in my regular life.

Haven't been in chastity in a while, there have been some things going on... Specifically, I met a boy.

Mommy's always been cool about my sexuality, and the only thing really holding me back was myself.

But anyways, turns out there is a guy in one of my classes that has totally put me in the bone zone and we're going to see what happens with it. We've hung out twice now and the first time was...well....a bit intense...

I remembered to write about it on a certain forum I'm a member of, just forgot to update the old blogaroo, so here are the two posts encompassing our little dance so far.

He's in my accounting class, and I always got a bit of a vibe from him, but evidently my gaydar had been EMP'd and I couldn't ever get a good read.

anyway, I'm sitting in the advisor's office about to get told what to take next semester and he walks in and sits in a chair that is in front of an office directly across from where I'm sitting. It's a big room, with some couches and chairs in the middle.

Our eyes meet, and he gives me a wave, but it's more like a miss america wave. It made me crack up.

I get done and get ready to leave and he's using the entrance only door (that I was going to leave through as well) and I say "hey, that say entrance only you know" and we both leave and start chatting about the class we have together.

he says something along the lines of "maybe I should give you my number if you want to study or anything", and we exchange numbers and chat a little bit more before he has to go to class.

Miss America wave and everything, and I'm still on the fence. Is he just eccentric? is he just one of those guys that does weird things for the sake of being weird?

I dunno, but we exchanged numbers and he made a comment about being a texting freak, so I'm expecting at least one tonight, if not I might text him tomorrow and see what's up. He was pretty cute, so if we can hang out a few times and me get a good read on him, we'll see what happens.

Next post, a few days later:

so, here's my little story.

today I was sitting in the halls of one of the buildings, waiting to take a test.

after reading a post of [forum member], I decided to nut up and not beat around the bush.

I sent him a text-

"hey, I needed to ask you a question"
"alright, don't take this the wrong way, and if it's not the case this is the last you'll hear of it...Are you gay or bi? Because you're kind of cute and I don't really want to beat around the bush with it."
"damnit I am gay, but I'm going to start seeing a guy. and you're cute too. you suck! you said you had a girlfriend  But yeah, gay as hell"
"Haha! well, that sucks. yea I have a girlfriend, but she is cool. she's actually pushing me to find a boyfriend. So, Gay as hell huh?"

it goes on.
He tells me how hot he thinks I am, and that I have horrible timing because he has a guy coming up tonight from out of town who could be a potential boyfriend, and that he's never had a boyfriend before.

we talk about maybe hanging out before potential boyfriend shows up for the weekend, and plans change about five times due to my schedule, and we finally meet up around 5:00, and I head to his apartment.

This is an apartment done by the school, so it's pretty much a dorm. We go into his room (rommate is gone) and start talking. He's being real handsy, and I'm enjoying it.

I say something cheeky like "so you like bigger guys, eh?" and he smiles and starts holding onto me, rubbing my stomach through my shirt and then pulls it up a bit. Eventually he pulls me down to the bed and straddles me, and we start kissing. His shirt comes off and somehow so does mine. we kiss more...he has a thing for nipples. He kisses me and nibbles them quite a lot.

He gets down to his boxers and straddles me again, and we continue the kissing. I start rubbing his cock through his boxers, and I can already feel his precum soaking the cloth where I'm rubbing his head.

he gets naked and says something cute about taking off his boxers, and we go back to the straddling and kissing, with me stroking him when I can. (god I have forgotten how much I love touching other guys. I really hope things work out for me....) He kisses my neck, moves down to my tattoo and starts going down my stomach and I unbuckle my belt and pull down my jeans and he starts sucking me off. Wow. He's good. He's so excited, I can feel his body tensing and shaking the whole bed. He's grinding himself against the bed, and god it's fucking hot.

Eventually, I sit up and pull him towards me...We are now sitting up, kissing, and his cock sitting on top of mine, is balls are nice and full and I can feel them bouncing on top of me while I stroke him, and ask him if wants to come for me. He smiles and says yes, and I start stroking him faster


it's my girlfriend, and the plans that we were having to change everything for have happened. We were relying on her brother to let us know when we had to leave and of course, we don't know until the last minute.

It took so much for me to get dressed. We kept kissing, and I couldn't stop touching and stroking him. I wanted to stay so bad, and to top it all of, I knew that while I was driving the thirty minutes to meet her brother to pick up some shit we needed, that he would be home all alone, naked, and jacking off thinking of me.

I hope this potential boyfriend is a Jackass, for my sake.

can I please be greedy just this once?

so, I hope everything turns out okay. We seem to have some stuff in common, except I don't think he's too kinky. We'll see. :D (sorry about the text changes)

Thursday, November 18, 2010


so Wednesday was my....I'm losing track now! let's see.

Second day in chastity, third day without an orgasm.

I was in class and felt that maybe the cage had shifted, so I skipped to the bathroom and got in one of the stalls to see what was up.

Everything was fine, but I noticed that I had a bit of precum just out of nowhere. It was really weird, I wasn't even horny, lol. At least I thought I wasn't horny.

so now we're hitting that midweek point and pretty much everything excites me.
I've gone from being the type of guy who masturbates twice, maybe three times a day to having to wait until someone has decided I deserve an orgasm. I think my penis has realized this and is maybe trying to do the begging for me. :D

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

so sunday was awesome.

just now getting a chance to type it up.

We were house sitting, and Mommy was having to leave to do stuff with her family on sunday morning. She was already dressed when I woke up and had some awesome morning wood going. I asked her if I could be naughty and she said yes. Then, pushing my luck, I asked if I could see her beautiful ass.

here's something you need to know if I haven't pointed it out already. I am an ass freak. Some might go so far as to call me an ass bandit, lol.  Mommy has got, the most amazing ass ever. The only girl who I've ever seen that rivals this big juicy piece of art is that porn star Daphne Rosen. (who does BDSM stuff as well. fucking nice stuff)

so, recounting. I <3 big asses, and Mommy has a big perfect ass.

She pulled her pants and panties down in one motion, and I was laying on the bed on my back with my head hanging at the end of the bed, face up. She slowly backed up onto my face and took a seat. I. Was. In. Heaven.

there's something about having someone control things that is just so arousing. Add to that the fact that she's not only controlling my orgasm and allowing me to have one, but she's controlling the most basic of all functions, my breathing. It seems that your penis realizes that your lungs aren't getting oxygen, and somehow thinks it can compensate by becoming even more erect that it already is. Just when you think you're not going to make it, she lifts up as if she is perfectly tuned into your brain, and you gasp for air only to be smothered once more.....After three or four times, I can't take it. She coos something to me that....I don't even know what it was, but hearing her voice made me explode. It was amazing.

she tells me what a good boy I am, runs her hands though my hair and kisses my forehead as I lay there in what the french would call le petite mort. Post orgasm ecstacy.

It's tuesday now, and I went back into the cage monday night. Two days since an orgasm, and one locked up.

-Much love and precum!

(I was going to start using that and totally forgot about it.)

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

No release yesterday...

I had gone to a friend's house and done some stuff over there, then we all came over to the house and Mommy made us all dinner. It was awesome. Best Dinner Ever.

The friends left and I hit the hay because for some reason this daylight savings time stuff always fucks with me.

keeping my fingers crossed that maybe today I'll get some, lol.

3 days in chastity and.....four(?) without an orgasm so far?

I was thinking the other day of trying to do a month for her, and start it right around the 24th of November...But I really don't know if I can do it. I mean, I lost my mind after six days before. Plus, we'd have to deal with nocturnal emissions, but that would give us a great reason to explore prostate milking together.

just a little edit here:

it used to be that I could call or text, and ask very very nicely and be allowed to come. Even if I was locked in chastity, if I called and asked permission, she would normally allow me an orgasm.

evidently that's changed, as I was literally begging through some text messages earlier and was told no over and over again.


Monday, November 8, 2010

i woke up this morning

super aroused.

I asked mommy if maybe she could help out, and she touched me a bit (with the cage on, sadly) and even gave me some kisses down there (also with the cage one)

I was kinda whimpering and maybe a bit whiny afterwards. She asked what was wrong and I told her how horny I was. She said if I was a good boy all day long then MAYBE later tonight she'd let me out and give me some attention.

I plan to be on my best behavior today.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

alrighty, back where we started.

So last night before bed I put my cage back on, and went to sleep.

About 4am, I woke up in pain. I think it was a combination of two things. It was cold so my balls were a bit less....stretchy? lol. I also had a really really really hard one going when I woke up.

It hurt so bad, and I walked around and tried to make it go away. I pee'd (for some reason, having to urinate really badly while I'm asleep sometimes make me get somewhat hard in the cage), walked around, and tried to get it to go away but the pain stayed.

I asked Mommy if I could please come out because it hurt, and she said yes, so I did so and then went back to sleep.

While she was still at class earlier, I put my cage back on and am now back in lockdown for what I believe is going to be a week. Hope it's as easy as the last week was. After the first few days, the need to cum takes a backseat to the arousal you get from not being able to touch.

You don't necessarily want to come. You just want to touch...Or you want to sit and look at dirty pictures and get yourself aroused, and get as close as you can without touching.

I think I'm going to post some pictures to the blog when I think about it.
Most of my followers are regulars on 4chan and have started following me after I've made a thread, so I figured I'd post a few pictures that were requested during my last successful thread.

The first picture was a request from someone whose name I can't remember. Wanted to see me locked up, leaking precum. Of course after being requested, it seems I got shy. Got a little bit out though after reading some nice suggestive posts.
The Next two were requested by the same person, and I think I did a good job making them happy. :D

This was a request from a different person, who wanted to see my ass.

And one for someone named Rawr, who after being asked to email me told me that I needed to do a bit more convincing.

So I hope you guys like this. Maybe I'll start posting a few more pictures if this goes over well.

Monday, November 1, 2010

well we were both pretty tired.

and not a lot happened last night, other than us snuggling a bit and going to sleep.

We got back from classes today, and she told me I should give her a good rub down, and if I did a good enough job she may not have to beat my ass with that damn paddle, so I did. 

Mommy has an amazing ass, and I am an ass freak, so about halfway through I started rubbing her calves and rested my head on her bottom. I asked if it was ok if I kissed her and she said yes, so I spent the next ten or so minutes with my face buried in her ass while rubbing her feet. Heaven.

I feel really bad about saturday still.....I think that we are going to make sure that doesn't happen in the future though... I had mentioned maybe getting a lock meant for luggage that had a combo. Obviously I wouldn't know the combo unless it was an emergency, and I think those are inexpensive enough so that if there were an emergency we could just go grab a new one later that day. Either way, it will work out fine. Haven't needed a key for a real emergency except for the time the cage broke after we first got it, and that was easily fixed. I think from now on if Mommy goes out of town she will take the keys with her. I wish that I had the strength to be good when I know where the key is...but....yeah...

maybe we'll start using an envelope again. i dunno, have to ask her and see what she's decided.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

about last night....

so last night after working all day I asked Mommy if I could take the cage off to give myself a thorough cleaning.

she said yes, told me where the key was, (which I had actually asked her to take with her, so I wouldn't be tempted when I get desperate...keep this in mind) and I washed myself. I actually did not need to lubricate myself to go back into the cage, my penis seemed complacent in his lack of sexual activity.

later that night, I realize that I may need to lube myself a bit after getting aroused and having my penis get stuck about halfway through the shaft of the cage. I took off the cage and was instantly rock hard, the ring still around my cock and balls.

So I started touching, not with the intent to orgasm, just...seeing what it felt like after six days with no touching.  I had so much precum on my head, It was ridiculous. I had also discovered a captioned gallery on that was making me quite excited. I was enjoying the tease and edge play when it happened.

My will had broken. I wanted to stop, but my penis begged me "No!" and I just could not stop myself from touching. I had an amazing orgasm, and came all over my stomach. (which is a big thing for me, I don't shoot very far)

I felt horribly guilty, and this afternoon when I went to meet Mommy at her parents I had to tell her. I was very worried that she'd be super upset with me, but she was understanding. I am still going to get punished, and I am not looking forward to that, but on our way home she called me to let me know she had to run back to her parents' house and would be a few minutes behind me getting in, and that I should be naked when she gets home.

just got home, typed this up and am getting naked after I hit submit. I wonder if I should take off this skeleton makeup?

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Just read my third entry...

and realized I never told you guys the rules that she came up with.

pretty simple stuff but I think it envelopes pretty much everything we'd encounter.

1. My mommy will always own and control my cock.
2. I will always do what my mommy says as soon as she says it.
3. I will not complain when my mommy asks/tells me to do something.
4. I will not talk back or be rude to my mommy in any way
5. I will accept all discipline as my mommy sees fit.
6. I will not lie.
7. I will listen to my mommy and think about what she says.
8. I will always think of my mommy first and ask permission before I do anything naughty or touch myself.
9. I will obey others when my mommy has put them in charge of me.
10. I will try to be a good baby boy at all times.

I know some of you are turned off by the whole Mommy/baby boy stuff, but let me reiterate, we are not an AB/DL couple. You could replace Mommy with "Princess", "Goddess", "Mistress", or even her name. It's just the term that we've come to start using...

Friday, October 29, 2010

five days in.

So it's five days now.

Everything is exciting me.

i found a website yesterday evening, It's all masturbation instruction, humiliation...that kind of stuff.

I guess I'm a bit of a masochist, as all I can do when I'm not going to get to come is watch this stuff and frustrate myself even further. Hopefully monday will be a good day.

oh yeah, I got told last night that I probably won't even get a chance to have an orgasm until monday because of the holiday and the weekend and stuff.

*whimpers* when I told her how her telling me that made my cock excited, she said "well maybe I'll have to make it two weeks instead of one..."

one week is exciting. I've done that before. Two weeks is scary.

- Much love and pre-cum

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

another lovely day in chastity.

so today I am going on my third (we think, lol) day back in chastity for a while. After deciding to switch back to the CB6000, we've been a little more serious about it. Today was fun, :P. I didn't go to my last class, and Mommy gets out an hour after I do, so I came home and took a shower (I was running late this morning) and cleaned myself real good, then came and chilled out on the laptop. I started looking at porn, specifically stuff from I love captioned porn, I don't know why though. The only problem with captioned porn is that a lot of the people making it are guys and apparently, did not finish the second grade, so some of it is instant boner kill.

anyway, I'm sitting here, locked up, looking at porn (specifically sissy stuff on imagefap. always gets me going because I am SOOO far from being a little petite sissy boy that it's a big fantasy of mine. hence why I'm totally weak for big muscle bear daddy types.) and enjoying my frustration when I look down and to my surprise, my squirt gun seemed to spring a leak. I was pre-cumming like crazy! And after only two or three days! When I say I was pre-cumming like crazy, I mean crazy. I mean it was coming out of the top of the cage and falling back, and I decided to stop looking at porn, and pulled my undies back up. The fun didn't stop there, because I had a nice big wet spot in my undies.

I told Mommy about it while we went to lunch on campus and she just smiled, grabbed my hand and told me I was "such a sexy boy" which makes me squeal like a schoolgirl.

We arrived home later and she led me to the bedroom, where we had some naughty fun. She pulled off her top and bra and motioned me to come over to her, so I did....on my knees in between her legs, kissing her stomach and her soft breasts, I could feel myself throbbing like crazy. She then told me to take off my pants, so I did, and after a few minutes I was told to fetch her purse, where she produced the key and told me to take off my cage.
She began touching me and told me to get on top of her like I was going to penetrate her, and started stroking me softly while the head of my cock rubbed against her pussy.... After some very very very good begging from me, I was allowed to penetrate her, but only for a few minutes.
She then told me she thought it was time that I went back in my cage and I pleaded with her, asking if my hands were tied behind my back if I could please have some more attention, that way she could tease me and no matter how desperate I was I couldn't touch, and she obliged. I also asked if I could wear my collar for her, and she said yes to that as well.

Mommy has learned (I think from my reactions) that she can just barely have her hand wrapped around my cock and it feels amazing, but is frustrating. You want the touch, but you dare not ask her to do it differently, it's not your place. I got really close to coming a couple of times, and after a few minutes she stopped and told me it was time for lock up again. I sat for a few minutes, and got soft, whining a bit until she asked me if I was complaining and wanted to be punished, to which I quickly replied "no!"

So, she uncuffs my wrists and tells me I have five minutes to be back in my cage or I will be spanked with the paddle that I do NOT like, which made me hard as a fucking rock. Luckily, I was able to think of other things and get back into the cage before the time was up, and shoed her my locked cock for inspection. She fondled my balls, telling me what a good boy I was, and then pulled my jeans up over the cage slowly.

I forgot how amazing it was to give part of yourself up to somebody in this sense. It's amazing. I'm so horny, and frustrated, but I've never felt more loved or at peace relationship wise.

oh, to anyone wondering- We got the collar and the paddle from Mr. S Leather. they're based out of San Francisco and make some great stuff.

here's the collar on some guy that's wayyy sexier than me:

Saturday, October 23, 2010

So today I'm all by myself

and locked up.

and horny as hell.

I think it's going to be a long day of playing with certain toys today.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Sorry for the little hiatus.

We've both been super busy, with school and the real world. October is a busy month for Mommy's side of the family, lots of birthdays and what have you.

so......after trying again and again and again with the birdlocked I finally broke down and went back to the CB6000, but with a few changes.

Here's the deal: The birdlocked is great. It's comfortable, it's soft, you sometimes forget you're in it, and it doesn't allow for the partial erections that the 6000 lets you have. The only problem is security. I can pull the birdlocked off if I'm desperate, and there have been a few occasions where I had a nocturnal erection that would NOT go down, and had to just pull it off because we couldn't find the key. It's great for exercising or riding my bike, but other than that....I'm pretty disappointed.

So unfortunately, I haven't been too chaste lately because of that.

I decided the other day that I'd go back into the 6000, and when necessary, take it off and put on the birdlocked for certain activities.

Seems to be working well enough, but I'm only one day back. I forgot how much my cock likes the feel of the, I put it on and feeling the plastic around me and stuff got me all excited, and that made it extra difficult because I was freshly shaven and I'm ALWAYS about a million times hornier when I'm freshly shaved.

Oh, on a side note- Bath and Body works sells a men's shave cream that is mentholated and it's AMAZING, both as a shave cream and as a bit of a tease when you're in the shower and those nice vapors are coming off of your crotch. Good stuff.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

this weekend has been a challenge.

Mommy's been out of town since friday afternoon, and I've been here all by myself. unlocked, to boot.

I think I looked at porn for a good three or four hours yesterday, just because I'm a bit of a masochist and knowing that I can't/am not allowed to do anything just makes me even more excited.

Hopefully when she gets back home today, we'll get some playtime in. (but we both have assignments to finish as well.)

Thursday, September 9, 2010


so I just had to write up a rough draft of a personal essay for this english class i'm taking.

it's been a lonnnnnng time since my last english class, and I'm at least three or four years older than most of the other people taking this course.

I hope I don't look like a retard when we do our peer review thingies.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

just a quick update

so things have been great here around the homestead, it's been raining nonstop recently after basically no rain for a month or two.

a few nights ago Mommy decided to tease me for a really really really long time. It was a nice fun night that didn't involve much bondage, but there was tons of fun. She started out just stroking me and teasing me, and then gave me some..."oral pleasure" for a bit, and eventually I was allowed to make her come while playing with her. (her playing with me at the same time)

I'm not a big precummer but when I start I really get going, and I was going fucking nuts that night. her voice in my ear while she came and her hands were just barely stroking my aching cock. fuck, getting hard thinking about it right now. I know I'm not describing it very well...I waited to long to recant. Either way when she finished, I was told to calm down and get back in my cage and my cock just would NOT go down. Twenty five minutes later, I was all locked up and ready to go.

to the one follower I've got, I'll try and update a little more often that way I can maybe get a few more people reading. :D

edit: holy shit, there's three of you now? you guys made my night!

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Sunday, August 1, 2010

some people...

just HAVE to shit on someone else to make themselves happy.

I put up a note on fetlife about the new contract and this asshole "master" from a group for "uber mean people" that I'm a part of for the lulz leaves some snide comment on the note.

that's fine, be a dick in the group meant for people to be dicks in, but don't fucking come after me and attack me just to make yourself feel better. I'm sure he's giggling his little ass off right now, thinking that I'm crying into my beer or some stupid bullshit like that.

what really makes me laugh is that this guy identifies as a "Master" and is trying to put me down by calling me fat. Lol. I'd drop his ass like a sack of potatoes if it came down to it, he's like 5'1 in heels and all of his profile pictures have him holding some old antique gun to the camera, because he's such a badass.

okey doke, vent over.

blog-o numero three-o


after the movies last night, Mommy and I were hanging out and she said that she wanted to go swimming, so we changed and went down to the hot tub and swam around. It was nice because we were the only two people there, and got to have some nice intimate conversation.

I had just joined a group on fetlife about domestic discipline, and was telling her about it and eventually the conversation turned towards the psychology of negative punishment versus Negative/positive reinforcement. (mommy is a psych major so she knows all this stuff) Then the conversation turned (thanks to me) on certain behaviors that I have that she would want to change, and then I brought up the idea of her maybe creating a set of house rules that I would need to follow on a day to day basis. (even though I'm not a slave, I still like the idea) I'm super excited, and uhm......yeah. I can tell that things are changing and going to be different from now on. Yay!

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Awesome day so far!

So Mommy and Me (I'm just going to refer to her as Mommy from now on. We don't really do ABDL stuff, but ageplay is always fun, and that way you guys know who I'm talking about.) just went and saw dinner for schmucks. You might think that this movie was just going to be a mediocre Steve Carrell/Paul Rudd buddy comedy;

It was awesome, haven't laughed that hard since the hangover. I don't want to give anything away, but Steve Carrel and Zach Galifianakis were hilarious. (I've liked Zach ever since I saw his comedy central presents special many years ago, so I'm glad he's getting good movie roles.) Plus, the theater was selling old used movie posters for a buck a piece, so we got like 8. :D

now, we're going to go play racquetball, and then maybe have some of the leftover dinner that I made last night. (I cooked up some cheeses tortellini in meat sauce and then turned out the lights in the kitchen and lit a candle just to be cheesy. It was delish.)

I've noticed that when I put on the birdlocked in the shower (sans lubrication) that these are the nights I end up waking up in pain because of some weird night time erection related issue. too much of my penis is forward, and sticks out of the vent holes, or I get smushed or something. going to just not put it on in the shower anymore and use a little bit of the silicone based lube that we have. so as it stands right now, I'm unlocked, haven't cum in....three days (?) and will be going back into the cage after I shower when we get back. Maybe I'll have something to blog about tonight if I'm lucky. :P

Friday, July 30, 2010

First Blog Entry!

So I've decided to jump onto the blog bandwagon. (a few years too late, I assume.)

I guess here is where I'd outline what I'm going to try and accomplish with this blog, or what I'm going to write about; so here goes.

I'm a young guy into chastity and fetishism, and have a girlfriend.  I'm going to recount stuff here, talk about what's on my mind, and all the regular blog stuff.

I've had a CB-6000 for a while, and recently we got a Birdlocked Mini device. I chose the cage because I knew it would be more secure, and wouldn't allow the partial erections that the other allowed. SHE chose the color, which is Bubblegum Pink. Partly because she loves pink, and partly because she knew it would remind me of my place every time I looked down and instead of seeing my penis saw a girly pink cage. When locked in, I can't get an erection. It has just enough space for the head of my penis to swell up a little bit, and you can tell I'm excited, but alas! No erections. Surprisingly, it is FAR more comfortable than the other chastity device, and I can wear it for longer periods. Luckily I've only ever been locked up for right under 2 weeks, because she likes my penis. a lot. heh.

maybe a little bit of a background on us would be appropriate at this point. After four years together, I finally got the courage to tell the girl that I loved and wanted to spend the rest of my life with that all the games that we had been playing in the bedroom were a lot more than just games to me. I wanted it to be something real, something that didn't turn on and off, something that I could feel every second of my life.  Right after our fourth anniversary, we had been talking and I decided to man up and do it. We were in the middle of some intimate activities when I told her I had something to tell her. I had her close her eyes and I disrobed, and then got out my collar. I got emotional. I told her how much I loved her, how much I trusted her, how much I needed her, and most of all; how much I wanted to be hers. Not just hers like "her boyfriend" but truly hers. At first she was taken aback and I thought "fuck, there it goes. you blew it. now she's freaked out.", but as I knelt there in front of her she took my collar and wrapped it around my neck, and after buckling it, she wrapped her arms around me and it was the most amazing feeling I have ever felt. Ever since that night, I have felt closer to her than I ever thought possible. This was over a year ago, and we have slowly learned how a D/s relationship works in the real world. This blog will cover our adventures now that we have begun to really blossom in our new relationship.