But yesterday was a fucking hoverboard.
Yes you read that correctly. On a school of 1-10, yesterday was a Hoverboard.
This post requires me to take you back nearly two years.
We had celebrated our fourth anniversary, and I had given myself to her. She had given me a CB6000 for my birthday, and I had found out that a girl I worked with was also very kinky. We decided that it would be okay for to know about everything, and if anything, she could keep tabs on me when I was at work and report back if I did anything punish worthy.
The girl was gorgeous, and very sexually liberal (obviously.) She didn't wear panties most of the time, (she had informed me) and thought I was apparently cute enough.
Obviously, the very first thing my mind went to was her blackmailing me into eating her out in the storage area, and I came to find out that that had crossed her mind quite a few times as well.
So here's the thing. Goddess/Mommy (I need to get a better name to refer to her with on the blog. It's hard keeping up with it, because she does enjoy the Mommy dynamic, just as long as I'm not pushing it all the goddamn time.) and I had always been very open with each other, and as of today we have a fairly open relationship. This was two years ago though.
When we talked about our fantasies, and things like threesomes, she told me how much she loved the idea of me cheating. Not "cheating" cheating, like going out on dates and falling in love with someone, but just me going and fucking some girl and not okaying it with her first.
So here I go, I'm going to make a ballsy move. The girl at work, we'll call her "N", was having some boyfriend drama and was showing interest in me. We had texted, she had sent me some pictures of herself, and even sent me a nice little voice message where she talked all dirty and berated me a little bit. I got out of class one evening and we were texting and it came up. I invited her over and she was there at my house (well, my parents') a few minutes later.
N was well aware of our situation, save the fact the Goddess would be okay with it. In fact, I had tried to explain to N about the situation, but she thought that there was some bad blood between her and Goddess for some odd reason, and wanted it to be in secret. I think she said that if she knew the other person knew about it, it would make her feel all bad and guilty or something. Either way, it happened.
She was very dominant. She came over and we laid in my bed talking about work and other bullshit until I kissed her. We started making out and eventually I felt the need to come clean to her about how I had masturbated the night before without permission. She had been texting me, and we had talked about how I was supposed to ask. I told her (as I had told Goddess...leaving out what I had masturbated over) that I had jacked off without permission to the pictures she sent me the night before.
She chastised me and then told me to take it out and start touching myself like I had done when I was looking at her pictures, and I did as I was told. She was telling me all sorts of things and eventually made her way down and started sucking my cock. Oh my god she could suck cock. Fuck, she could suck cock. She came up and made me lay across the bed, and straddled my face. She ground herself into me while she continued to suck my cock until she came. I don't think she let me...I can't remember.
We hung out one other time but she was a bit more....distant? I dunno. We watched a horror movie and I sat down on the floor in front of her while she was up on the couch. She wasn't wearing any shorts or panties but wouldn't let me touch her, or worship her pussy or anything. Just sat there at her feet.
I had every intention of telling Goddess while it was going on, but after I had done it.....I felt guilty, and I was very scared that she wouldn't react well.
also, Goddess thought N was pretty hot, and probably would have had hot nasty lesbian scissor sex with her if given the chance.
Scissor me, Xerxes!
Now Jump back to last night:
We are lying in bed and Goddess is talking about how she feels bad for wanting to other people sometimes, even though we have an "open" relationship. I ask her why and she tells me it's because of me and my hesitations about her doing things with other guys.
I had to explain to her that it was something that I very much wanted, but I am the type of person who needs a push sometimes. I am the type of person who will go to a water park, and be completely stoked about the slide until I get to the top and sit down and go "Oh shit. Oh christ." and sometimes I need someone to hold my hand and help me with those things.
We continue talking about our relationship and things and she brings up me doing things with other girls. Now I know I am allowed to play with other guys, but I have never felt truly comfortable about fucking other girls/telling her. She asks if I would and I said "yes, if you were okay with it." to which she responded along the lines of "fuck, I wish you would."
The conversation went something like this.
"well yeah, I've told you that over and over."
"well....uh...I have to tell you something."
"I......I.....did stuff with N"
"oh okay, you're just saying that to make me horny so I'll fuck you"
"No! I really did!"
I told her everything that happened, and I was pretty scared she'd be pissed......
but she fucked my brains out and I even got to come. That was after the spanking I got for keeping it from her for two years. I was made to promise (while being flogged with the least painful of our whips/paddles) that I would NEVER keep something like that from her again, and I did, very willingly.
I don't even know what to say, really. I was scared that it was all talk, and it took a lot for me to tell her. I do feel bad for lying, so that's NOT gonna happen again.
so that's how awesome my life really is. I swear to god I am living in a porno or something.