Monday, April 2, 2012

more ways to give up control

You know, my biggest problem wit chastity is my willpower.

I get horny and I watch some porn, which makes me hornier so I watch more until it gets to the point where I just have to rip off my cage and if there is a key in the house with me I WILL find it and I WILL jack off.

Hopefully this has changed.

Someone on an imageboard mentioned using a webfilter.
At first I thought it was stupid, but I let the idea ruminate in my head.

If I can't look up porn without permission, there won't be days where I look at porn until I go insane with lust and rip the cage off.

If I can't look at porn without permission, when I'm horny I might just get up and do something a good boy would do instead of looking at porn like a naughty boy. Maybe I'll take out the trash, or do some dishes, or rub her feet.

So I let it sit and spin around in my head.

I downloaded the program, k9 web protection, just to see what it was about and it has all the bells and whistles. Blocks all tons of content, can block sites based off of certain words in the URL, even has curfew/bedtime restrictions if you want to go that far, and timeouts for when you try and access blocked content too often in a period of time.

So I looked at all the sites I visit regularly and figured out which ones I was using for porn. Can't get to them anymore, that's for sure. I made up a password, "mommysgoodboy" and just typing it in to make changes was getting me excited.

So I went to a website with a random password generator, and covered up the generator with my hand. I created a password and copied it.

closed the window.

pasted the new password into the program.

Made Mommy's email the admin, and sent her an email letting her know what I had done.  (We had briefly discussed it so I knew she'd be onboard.) I pasted the password into her email without looking at it and then deleted the email.

So now I have to be a good boy, I don't have much say in the matter. I already got a time out earlier (but that was because it was blocking https sites and my email was trying to load. Fixed it!) and had to turn off the computer and go to bed.

It was so arousing. I've lost even more control, and if I'm a bad boy and get a timeout or try and get around this thing, it will tattle on me and she'll know.

I'm hoping this will help me continue to become a better boy and maybe give me a reason to exercise a little more at home. (it's a great distraction.)


  1. Goodboys are constantly wanting to...prove...they deserve Mommy's matter how difficult it is!

  2. my master made me download this program, we've not used it yet, now I'm locked he actually likes me to look at porn- gets me very horny and I can't even touch 'his cock' as he reminds me my cock now has to be called! nice to hear you're using it