december 15th, 2010

15 followers? On the 15th?

spoooooky!



not much going on today. Mommy's been kind of sick (super lucky I got let out last night) so we've been taking it easy, and I have a final in about a half hour for one of my classes and then I'm done! :D

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update!

Mommy and I went out to eat (courtesy of her Mom) to celebrate our finals being done. On the way back home she said she needed to run an errand and that I should run upstairs and get the cash for her, and she would go. I jokingly asked if she wanted me to be naked and blindfolded when she got home and to my surprise she said "Yes."

I ran upstairs and got her the money, then ran back upstairs to get ready. I wasn't totally naked because it was collllllld, but I put on my collar, buckled on my ballgag, and slipped on one of our cuffs, before lowering the blindfold down and then velcro the other cuff around my wrist.

I laid there for what seemed like an hour. Every car I heard pass by was hers, and my heart would go aflutter. Finally I heard the distinctive sound of HER car and I knew for sure that she was here...I could hear the stairs outside of our apartment doing their usual creak, creaking as she made her way up and unlocked the door.

She walked into the bedroom and gave me an "awwwwwwwwww" and then commented on how good of a boy I was being, and how I even had my collar on. Mommy laid down next to me and started running her hands over my legs, commenting on the smoothness (although she has previously said that she doesn't like it very much and would rather have me not shave my legs) and kissing my cheek.

I asked......well, mumbled...through the gag for her to please take off my cage she asked me what I was saying, giggling. It was pretty obvious she know but I repeated myself "wiww oo peease tage off muh caye mo-my?"

She smiled and removed it slowly, and started touching my (at this time) cock. At this point we noticed I was a bit chaffed, but not near enough to make me want to ask her to slow her advances. I was huffing and puffing and she smiled and leaned forward and unbuckled the ballgag. My jaw felt so weird, I don't think I'd ever worn it for that long before. Mommy started stroking me, and I was already getting all drippy. She made sure to comment on that, and then she leaned in really close and said "I hope you don't think you're going to cum tonight, because after I get done teasing you, you're going back in your cage."


I whimpered softly.

She straddled me, and I started grinding against her, trying to feel her against me....

I asked her if she would please fuck me and she said "no."

I asked "Why?"

"because you have a little bitty boy cock, and Mommy's pussy is only for real men with real big cocks."

"y...yes Ma'am....."

the grinding and straddling continued, and I decided that It was time to maybe dig my own grave a bit.

I asked her sheepishly "d....don't you think it's unfair to all those....those....men...with big ....cocks...that you're comparing me to them?...sh...shouldn't we...maybe call it something else....?"

"oh....you mean like....hmmmm..what was it you called it the other day? a cocklet?"

"y....yes Ma'am.....do....do you like...that....word?"

Mommy smiled at me and said yes, that she did like it, very much.

I then started to dig my grave a little more and told her about some of the rules I had read for boys from a Master on lockedm4m (and actually on blogger too) I said "you know that Master I was talking about who has all those boys?"

"yes"

"well he said that uhm...for boys...sex is totally passive. They don't have uhm...cocks...so they don't get to fuck...they get fucked......e....e...even w...with uhm...other boys..they don't get to touch or anything like a real man would either....."

"hmmm. so if I let you go play with another boy, you should be locked up, hmmm?"

"o....only if you wanted me to be......oh...and uhm...he says...for his boys....that they're only allowed to ....uhm....make boycums...if they have something in their....boyhole...."

this continued, and Mommy asked me if I wanted to be like one of those boys. I nodded softly, and hid my face because I was super embarrassed. We snuggled some more and Mommy let me grind against her soft legs, but could tell I was getting too excited and pushed me off, telling me to calm down.

we laid together, talking about how her boy's life may change in the near future. We talked about things that we may do....I asked her if she really meant all that stuff she said earlier, and she asked "What stuff?"

"you know...about my uh....cocklet...and not being allowed to fuck you and sttuff anymore....."

"well of course, babyboy! you might get to feel Mommy's pussy if you're a VERY VERY good boy and I just REALLY want you to fuck me..."

I gulped nervously in my head, but my cocklet was saying otherwise (even writing this right now has got me all excited and probably drippy again). then she sat up and said "well I really have some stuff to do..." and got up to get dressed.

the chaffing is a little worse than I thought, but it's only two small spot on the underside of my shaft. I told Mommy that if she wanted I could just wear the hard plastic cage and it wouldn't be as bad on the chafing. I think it was a combo of having shaved the other day and getting a bump or two on the shaft of my cocklet, and having not lubed enough while in the cage. Lube/lotion/etc is VERY important when you're a locked boy! Mommy's letting me have the night free, as long as I promise to be a good boy, which I did. I love her so much, I'm the luckiest boy in the whole wide world!

soooooo, that was my day! how was yours!?

december 8th 2010 again!

yay I have a new subscriber!

thanks for reading Panda's Property!

just a quick update for everyone, the birdlocked mini is really really emasculating, even more than the 6000. First off you're not even allowed the partial erection you got before, and in my case...this one is pink.

so, I give you some pictures and hope you like them.

I'd like to make this a regular thing, and posted some before, but I don't think I ever got any feedback, so......any is appreciated.

                                                                Earlier today, feeling girly

And Later after my shower, feeling more Girly than before. Mommy loves these panties.

blog-o numero three-o

sooo.

after the movies last night, Mommy and I were hanging out and she said that she wanted to go swimming, so we changed and went down to the hot tub and swam around. It was nice because we were the only two people there, and got to have some nice intimate conversation.

I had just joined a group on fetlife about domestic discipline, and was telling her about it and eventually the conversation turned towards the psychology of negative punishment versus Negative/positive reinforcement. (mommy is a psych major so she knows all this stuff) Then the conversation turned (thanks to me) on certain behaviors that I have that she would want to change, and then I brought up the idea of her maybe creating a set of house rules that I would need to follow on a day to day basis. (even though I'm not a slave, I still like the idea) I'm super excited, and uhm......yeah. I can tell that things are changing and going to be different from now on. Yay!

Awesome day so far!

So Mommy and Me (I'm just going to refer to her as Mommy from now on. We don't really do ABDL stuff, but ageplay is always fun, and that way you guys know who I'm talking about.) just went and saw dinner for schmucks. You might think that this movie was just going to be a mediocre Steve Carrell/Paul Rudd buddy comedy;

It was awesome, haven't laughed that hard since the hangover. I don't want to give anything away, but Steve Carrel and Zach Galifianakis were hilarious. (I've liked Zach ever since I saw his comedy central presents special many years ago, so I'm glad he's getting good movie roles.) Plus, the theater was selling old used movie posters for a buck a piece, so we got like 8. :D


now, we're going to go play racquetball, and then maybe have some of the leftover dinner that I made last night. (I cooked up some cheeses tortellini in meat sauce and then turned out the lights in the kitchen and lit a candle just to be cheesy. It was delish.)

I've noticed that when I put on the birdlocked in the shower (sans lubrication) that these are the nights I end up waking up in pain because of some weird night time erection related issue. too much of my penis is forward, and sticks out of the vent holes, or I get smushed or something. going to just not put it on in the shower anymore and use a little bit of the silicone based lube that we have. so as it stands right now, I'm unlocked, haven't cum in....three days (?) and will be going back into the cage after I shower when we get back. Maybe I'll have something to blog about tonight if I'm lucky. :P

First Blog Entry!

So I've decided to jump onto the blog bandwagon. (a few years too late, I assume.)

I guess here is where I'd outline what I'm going to try and accomplish with this blog, or what I'm going to write about; so here goes.

I'm a young guy into chastity and fetishism, and have a girlfriend.  I'm going to recount stuff here, talk about what's on my mind, and all the regular blog stuff.

I've had a CB-6000 for a while, and recently we got a Birdlocked Mini device. I chose the cage because I knew it would be more secure, and wouldn't allow the partial erections that the other allowed. SHE chose the color, which is Bubblegum Pink. Partly because she loves pink, and partly because she knew it would remind me of my place every time I looked down and instead of seeing my penis saw a girly pink cage. When locked in, I can't get an erection. It has just enough space for the head of my penis to swell up a little bit, and you can tell I'm excited, but alas! No erections. Surprisingly, it is FAR more comfortable than the other chastity device, and I can wear it for longer periods. Luckily I've only ever been locked up for right under 2 weeks, because she likes my penis. a lot. heh.

maybe a little bit of a background on us would be appropriate at this point. After four years together, I finally got the courage to tell the girl that I loved and wanted to spend the rest of my life with that all the games that we had been playing in the bedroom were a lot more than just games to me. I wanted it to be something real, something that didn't turn on and off, something that I could feel every second of my life.  Right after our fourth anniversary, we had been talking and I decided to man up and do it. We were in the middle of some intimate activities when I told her I had something to tell her. I had her close her eyes and I disrobed, and then got out my collar. I got emotional. I told her how much I loved her, how much I trusted her, how much I needed her, and most of all; how much I wanted to be hers. Not just hers like "her boyfriend" but truly hers. At first she was taken aback and I thought "fuck, there it goes. you blew it. now she's freaked out.", but as I knelt there in front of her she took my collar and wrapped it around my neck, and after buckling it, she wrapped her arms around me and it was the most amazing feeling I have ever felt. Ever since that night, I have felt closer to her than I ever thought possible. This was over a year ago, and we have slowly learned how a D/s relationship works in the real world. This blog will cover our adventures now that we have begun to really blossom in our new relationship.