...

So it happened, and it was pretty much everything I thought it was going to be.

It's going to happen again tonight. She's going to do some stuff with her bridesmaids and I've got band practice. I'm going to be locked and after she does her thing, she's going over to his place.














As for the blog and the updates, I've found that as I have become increasingly busy, I feel really disenchanted with writing updates. I have work, band practice, my regular life, the blog, and a bunch of other shit. The blog just isn't one of my priorities anymore, and I can tell that the quality of my updates and writing really reflect that.

We'll see what happens with this, but I think I'm taking an official hiatus.(as opposed to the unofficial one I've been on with my sporadic updates for the last six months or so)

it's finally happening...

sort of.

maybe.

kind of.


the other night we went out with a friend and one of his friends. Our friend is kind of dominant, not really bi, and into her. She's also into him! He's aware of pretty much everything.

The night progressed and we all ended up back at his place hanging out. We came home around 4.

The next morning, she tells me that when I ran inside to use the restroom, they basically were making out, and she was telling me about how he started fondling her and kissed her breasts for a few seconds, and that was about it. Then we had the best sex ever. I was locked up the entire night, and she unlocked me to fuck my brains out.

I just got home from work, and I am now locked again. She's going to babysit, and then she's going to hang out with him and see what happens. I'm lying in bed about to go to sleep for a little while (at 4pm. I guess I'm taking my afternoon nap, lol) because my job has me going in super early when I work days.

So I assume she'll get back tonight and have a great story to tell.

The best part about it is that she's really embracing the whole Boy thing now....telling me about him and how he doesn't kiss like me, how I have sweet little boy kisses, etc.

It's so hot. I'm going to go insane. Everything in my life is awesome. Thank you, Universe!


edit: she's over there right now. I need to be up for work in like four hours. Can't sleep. Too excited. too horny. Can't wait for her to get home.

Just another update.

I was allowed an orgasm four days after the last post. It really wasn't anything special or different than before, and I've been working my butt off so I neglected to post about it.

We met a friend from fetlife at Barnaby's in Montrose for dinner last week. He was coming from a bear get together and talked to another mutual fetlife friend(whom I've never met) about coming and meeting me/us.

He told me that the other guy was jealous, and that he said he had some superglue for my lock. This made my Mommy-Fiancee chuckle and she said she'd have to keep that in mind. I later found out that the guy didn't even say that, it was just the person we were supposed to meet fucking with me. he did say he was jealous though, or so I've been told! :D

Anyway, earlier today I texted her and asked if she remembered the whole superglue incident. She said yes and I bashfully told her that it was really hot. 

We played some games with her family and then retired to bed and I put on Fanboys. Great flick.

She was loving on me and we started talking about the whole superglue thing. I told her that I definitely would need some Mommy-Reassurance and she did her best to tell me that it would be okay.

She used me, as she often does, and once she came she started touching me some more, asking how long I think I could go?

Could you go one week for me?

I nodded.

What about two?

I nodded again

What about a whole month?

I was hesitant, but I nodded.

Then she brought up....once again.....making me wait until we were married. She talked about she'd tease me, and use me, and when we were finally married and I was allowed out she would kiss me all over and let me enter her so I could explode inside of her. Then she told me how bad she wanted to feel me exploding inside of her, and how she knew I wouldn't be able to control myself after so long so after I came she'd make me lick her and clean her out. All of this was while she was touching me, ever so lightly, with her soft little hands.

Needless to say, I wanted to come very, very badly.

She told me no, time and time again.

Then she hit me with another bombshell.

When she is ready to lock me back up, I'll know, because that will be the next time I get to come.

So....

I'm excited, and nervous, and anxious, and horny.

I don't know how long she really plans to keep me locked. The year thing really really turned her on I think. I am a bit scared, as I believe I should be....but like I told her, if that is what she wanted, I would do it for her.

So that's where we stand.

What a long strange trip it's been.

So we moved back to Houston in September, and are staying with her parents until we get a house, essentially.

I started my new job, and am sitting here waiting to go in tonight. My first time on shift and it's also at night. Ought to be pretty run of the mill.

Of course, with all the moving and hustle and bustle, our D/s play fell to the wayside again.

However, last week, she was teasing me while we were lying in bed. She got me so hard and stroked me to edge a few times, then rode me until she was satisfied that Iw as about to cum, and hopped off. It's crazy. Half of the time she doesn't even make me bring her to orgasm, she just likes riding my cock enough to drive me crazy.

Anyway, she told me that if I was a very good boy this week that she'd let me have an orgasm on Friday, but I was not to cum or even think about cumming until then.

Wednesday evening came and I felt like I was going to lose it, so I locked myself up without asking her. She was disappointed at first but has been teasing me like all day every day since then.

We spoke a bit more about my desire to be cuckolded, mostly after a conversation I had on Omegle. I was telling her about this guy who was also into puppy play, but was definitely and Alpha. He loved that I was in chastity and was telling me how he'd pin me on the floor and make me his little beta bitch, because that's all I was.

I started talking to her about that, and how I wanted to get fucked in front of her. She loves the thought, and can't wait to see me get used like a little fucktoy for some real man. Then I kinda brought it up that if he completely dominated me and I was just lying there like a used up ball of nerves, and then he took her.........

well that would really solidify my place as the beta boy, wouldn't it?

Not only has he completely dominated me sexually....then he takes her while I am still recovering from the pounding he gave me.

She loved this. We talked and she teased, and she told me things like how useless my little cock was, and how it's only good to her locked up so she can tease me and watch me squirm and laugh at me and my pathetic cock....I also might have mentioned that because I want to be such a good boy for her that I wouldn't ask to be let out anymore. I really really really really really REALLY need to work on that whole "topping from the bottom" thing and this is one step.

She's really gotten into the teasing...it's driving me wild. She'll roll my balls around in her palm, or take one hand and just stroke my head while I'm in the cage...and she just loves it when I whimper and squirm.

So we had a nice week, and friday came. I was supposed to be at work (but my boss had given me the day off a few days prior so I could prepare for the night shift tonight) but I surprised her with lunch at a fancy restaurant and even though we have been openly discussing and planning our marriage/wedding next year, I went through all the hoops to propose and make it as special as possible. She loved it, and of course, she said Yes!

Friday night came around and I was locked in my cage, hoping that because I had been the best boy in the whole wide world that day, that she might just let me out and fuck my brains out. I was mistaken.

...and that is a good sign I think....that she's REALLY into keeping me locked up.....that on the happiest day of her life so far, she comes and lays in the bed with her now Official Soon-to-be-Husband and unlocking his dick is not on the agenda. :D

She said earlier today that she's going to keep me locked up for a long time. I don't know what a long time is, but she had hinted before, albeit in a very jovial tone, that she might just keep me locked up until we get married. She's also said that for the entire month before our wedding, I'd be locked...but she did say I'd get unlocked for the bachelor party, just to avoid any embarrassment with her family in case there is some sort of crazy stripper fiasco.



Things are going great. My cock is driving me insane and I'm horny all the time. I reaaaaaaaaaally feel the need to find a dominant guy and submit that way now...I woke up yesterday and it was like my ass was just craving something pounding it....but I digress!

Things are going great! We're on the right path and we've got a place to stay, rent free, until we can afford to get a house. Then we have the wedding, and who knows what's next after that. I know I post sporadically, but now that we are back to a semi normal living arrangement and schedule, I feel like I'll have more time to update everyone. Especially if she continues to leave me locked up an tease me like this! It's so strange, too. Usually she'll unlock me and tease me, or fuck me, and leave me to squirm in my own juices, but she seems to be enjoying me having no freedom at all...for now at least.

Anyway, I hope the few people who are still coming in and checking my blog are doing well, and I hope you haven't abandoned me. I know I haven't been posting as much as I should, but Real Life seems to get in the way of your sex life sometimes. :D


It's been five days since I've had an orgasm, and only four in the cage. My longest record so far was fifteen days locked up, which we set fairly recently about a month or two ago. I hope she makes me go a little longer this time. Who knows, maybe I won't come until next October!

Switching.

We used to switch a lot more than we do these days.

and for this story we're gonna have to back up a bit.


So over the course of fifteen days when I had been locked up, I had to go to the store to get some stuff for her parents' house. They were watching her cousin's kid and I had to get something baby related and walked by the pacifiers and got a hardon. Well, you know, a chastity hardon.

ABDL stuff doesn't really turn me on. Just doesn't do it. Yeah, some of the pictures of girls and boys in diapers are cute but it doesn't really turn my crank.

I threw a pack of pacifiers in the basket and made my purchase.

When I got back to her parents' house I was feeling pretty weird about it.  It was embarrassing and I didn't really know why I bought them. I told her about it, and it was awkward-ish. I put them in my suitcase and forgot about them.

Last night, we are sitting in our apartment and a friend is over. He and I are in the living room playing a video game and she decided to do some unpacking in the bedroom. He gets up to use the restroom and I hear

"Hey babe.."

I look and she's got her head poking out of the bedroom with a pacifier in her mouth and is giggling like an idiot. Poking fun at me.

It was funny, but seeing her with it got me hard.


So at about three in the morning our friend leaves (we're all night owls) and we retire to the boudoir, where she is acting all snuggly and lovey dovey. I reach down and realize that she is so very excited. Excited to the point where her lips are swollen and soft. She's nearly pulsating with every heartbeat. We start having sex, and eventually I blurt out how fucking hot it was seeing her like that, and if she wanted to be my little girl.

She admitted that after she had put it up, she had thought about it, and it had gotten her pretty excited. The rest of our time that night was spent with us talking about things related to that, and me fucking her brains out because it got me so hot. Talking about putting her in pigtails or cute little barettes, and a nice little flowery dress and her learning how to please Daddy the right way.

It was fucking hot.

I went to bed hard though, and probably stayed hard all night. I woke up hard and told her that I wanted to fuck my little girl again, and she politely had to decline, telling me that I had made her all sore the night before. I told her that was fine, and that she could lay next to me and help Daddy come by being a sexy little girl, which she enthusiastically did. She was telling me all about the things she wants to do and learn, and I explained a scenario in which I'd show her how to please me and give her a special lollipop that gives her a yummy treat if she does a good job. She was very excited for that. We finished up and went about our business, getting some lunch and running an errand, then heading home.

She then reminded me that she was supposed to go out with the friend she has been out with before, that they were going to another movie. He's a potential person she'd like to fuck....and I'm still confused about it. We were talking earlier and I told her it's one of those things I don't know what will really do to me until it's been done. I think it's hot, it makes me excited thinking about it, but I don't know what the reality's like.

Either way, she was getting ready and I walked into the bedroom. She jumped onto the bed and laid on her back, showing me the sexy victoria's secret panties she was wearing.....she told me how sexy I was and I told her something along the lines of "you can go out with him as long as your pussy is nice and sore first" and then proceeded to wreck shop.

I started spanking her and could tell that she liked it. Even if she didn't want to tell me she liked it, her pussy was being a little tattle-tail, so I continued. She was on the verge of tears but she never once told me to stop. She took it like a good girl for Daddy, and I'm really proud of her for that, considering she doesn't get spanked very often.

After I had sufficiently worn her out, I made her stay on the bed on all fours with her ass and pussy on display for me so I could take some pictures of her reddened, hand-printed bottom. I put the camera up and she laid on her tummy, her cute little rosebud smiling at me. I asked her if she was horny, and if she had taken a shower for me. She said yes, and I started licking her tight little hole. This drove her fucking crazy. It always does. She moans, and thrashes about, and grinds her pussy into the bed, and makes a big wet mess for me.

After I got done rimming her I laid down and she cuddled up next to me again, and surprisingly started kissing me on the mouth. She's really weird about kissing after oral, and usually won't do it until after we're done and I've gone and rinsed my mouth out, but she was ready to go. I asked if she thought she was ready to come and she practically begged me.

I grabbed her hand and put her fingers on her clit. She looked surprised.

"Make yourself come for me then."

She started touching herself while I took my finger and toyed with her ass.

It took her a while, mostly because I think she was a bit embarrassed, but she came very hard for me. It was wonderful.

So now she's out at the movies with a sore bottom and a most definitely very sore pussy, and I'm sure every time she squirms in that seat she'll know that even if she does get to fuck this guy, that I OWN that pussy today.

A new record for me!

So I have always told people the longest I'd ever gone locked up was "roughly two weeks" which in reality was about a week and a half, maybe a day more.

Well, on August 20, 2012 I was let out and graciously allowed to orgasm. After fifteen days. Woo! New Record!

I know it doesn't seem like a lot, and I get that some guys who are into chastity maybe don't have a very high libido, but that was a long fucking time for me, lol!

And the best part about it is that she was telling me allllll about all the puppy play she wants to do when we get home (still in Houston), so on Saturday after we get home there's some fun in store.

She came into the room I was working in earlier and told me she needed me to stay at her parents house during the day on Saturday because she, her cousin's wife, and her mom are all going to go to this bridal show thingy.

I said I'd stay and cheekily asked if it was gonna be worth it for me.

I don't want to ruin anything but let's just say that, yes...it will be totally worth it. Check back saturday or sunday for another post. :P

Puppies!

I knew this would happen eventually.

When I first discovered BDSM, thanks to the Yahoo! Instant Messenger user chats when I was about 14, the thing that really got me into it was pet play. I was young and had some self esteem issues, and chatting and being someone's cute little puppy was something that really really worked for me.

I would wag my tail and curl up at their feet, and they'd talk about what a cute little thing I was, and reward me for being so cute, and for being a good puppy and doing as I was told.

In my young mind, having been rejected by people so much throughout school and what have you, this was amazing. All I had to do was be a good boy, and I could get that special attention that I never had before. 

I had kind of forgotten about all of that until a few months ago, when I was cruising around on hypnochan looking for things to listen to while being a naughty boy. I downloaded a few files, by a user named "Vive", just looking for something that would get me going. One of the files...it's called a masturbation loop. I guess you're just supposed to listen to it while you're cranking it and it either helps to get you off, or the supposed subliminals in it get inside your head and change you.

Either way, it's about becoming a dog. There are dogs barking in the background and a woman's voice, talking to you about how you've chosen to become a dog, and how you love being a dog. You're finding it harder to understand what she's saying and focusing on the dogs barking. Eventually, she says you can't understand at all because dogs do not understand English. She tells you with every stroke of your sex, you're becoming more doglike. More confused, more aroused, no hands- paws stroking you, etc.

Then last night I was on Omegle and decided that I'd play as a pup, so I put some things in my settings regarding petplay, and eventually I was matched with someone who was also interested in "pup". I introduced myself as a 23 year old puppy who was locked in chastity and the woman I was speaking with seemed very interested. As the conversation continued I was definitely in puppy mode and was emoting things that I would have been doing had she been there, and I kept getting all of the "oh you are just TOO cute!" type of responses...which....because I'm a little attention whore, drove me wild.

In the scene we were playing out she was teasing me mercilessly, to the point where I was begging her to stop, because she knew I didn't have a key, and even when I was "at my breaking point" she told me how she'd love to stop but I was "just so cute" lying there wriggling around and humping the air with my little puppy cock.

I had really forgotten how much I loved puppy play. The more I think about it....I want it more and more. I want to get pierced, so my cage is 100% secure. I want to be a good little horny frustrated puppy for my Mommy. I've mentioned puppy play to her in passing and she's actually kind of referred to it before, and loves the thought of me sleeping at the foot of the bed or on the floor next to her like a good puppy........I want to be so horny, and frustrated, and completely powerless and helpless because my poor little puppy paws couldn't even grab onto my little frustrated puppy cock even if I was allowed out of my little metal prison.

Don't even get me started on how it would feel to be allowed to "masturbate" for her. Puppies can't use their hands, that's for sure. Maybe she'd keep me locked up until I could make myself come from humping her leg, or foot, or a little pillow. I know she'd get a kick out of that, she loves to watch me squirm.....and making it so that I had to come like a little puppy would drive us both wild.

We're going to have to talk about this some more...definitely.

We are spending more and more time in Houston these days.

and as such, have been packing and unpacking quite a bit.


We spent some time at the apartment for a few days, and then Mommy had a pretty big accident. She fell down the stairs while taking our dogs out one night, which is odd because she doesn't usually take the dogs out at night. She missed a step or two and fell, hurting herself pretty badly.

I got her up the stairs, and the next morning we tried to get her to a doctor to get some xrays done, to make sure there weren't any fractures. Ended up having to go to the ER because NO doctor would take a new patient, or didn't have appointments open that day. A bunch of bullshit. Thankfully it was only two very bad sprains, which left her pretty much immobile for a few days.

Anyway, she's up and moving around now which is great. We decided to go back down to Houston and of course I was locked up.

We got to her parents' house and she looks at me and says "You know..I hope you brought a key because I totally forgot to bring one."

"uh....nope."

"shit"

"......welllllllll I guess you'll have to tease me extra hard then.."

I laughed nervously and she giggled and blew me a kiss.

Awesome.


(Oh I almost forgot!)

I finally (again) brought up my wanting to get a PA. She's apprehensive, like she was with the Chastity devices at first, because she's worried about something happening. I catch it on something and it tears or rips. Even though we both know that's not going to happen, the possibility is still there I guess, so it's a valid fear.

But I have a feeling if we have the money to get it done here in a week or so, I might get it for my birthday! I already have the jewelry from having my ears stretched out, so I just need to pay to get it done....as long as it's like an 8 or below. I have some 6's too but I'm kinda hoping to put those in my ears. :P

Oh wow. Just wow.

Okay so I posted how things were going better and how Mommy has been allowing me more privileges sexually....

Well just a few minutes ago I was allowed to worship her pussy. mmmmmm. She was lying on the couch and beckoned me over, so we started snuggling and kissing and I could tell she was getting excited. I asked, very politely if I "could have the pleasure of kissing her" and she nodded.

I helped her disrobe and even rolled of her socks, and she took those sexy little feet and stuck them up into the air...right in my face...I kissed and sucked on her feet and toes all the while my eyes were stuck on her gorgeous womanhood. She was so wet just from my kissing her neck, it drives me mad just thinking about it.

I knelt down on the couch and started kissing her and eventually we moved to where I was on the floor kneeling (where I should've been all long, lol) and she came really hard. REALLY hard. It was fucking amazing.

Afterwards, I was rinsing my mouth out like a good boy (she likes me to do that afterwards so we can kiss and stuff) and I laid down on the bed and pulled her on top of me and thanked her. She smiled and thanked me for being "such a good little boy", then stood up told to me pick some stuff up.

I whimpered because I wanted some attention and she told me to stop, and then I was told again to do the thing she asked. I whined a little more and she motioned that I was going to get spanked and told me to stand.... I hesitated and she started counting.

"1...."

"...2..."
"......3"
She grabbed my hair really fucking hard and pulled me up to her, and then spanked my bottom...which only really turned me on more. I told her how much I loved when she did that and she took the opportunity to pull my head around a little more and made me kiss her.


So I did what I was told, and then she told me to go sit on the couch so I could rub her feet, and then after a couple minutes of foot rubbing I could feel it.

that...

that....sign.....

that submissive boy feeling...when you can't even control your own little penis....

and I knew I was leaking for her.

Life gets in the way again

I've been really stressed out lately.

Graduating college, looking for work....Only getting two interviews in the two months I've been looking....

and it's really gotten to me. Apparently I was being kind of an asshole kind of a lot.

We talked about it in depth the other day and she was explaining how it was making her feel and I felt pretty horrible about it all.

Of course she hasn't been in the mood for anything kinky since.


....but yesterday I asked if I could be naughty and she said yes. She unlocked me and then went into another room to take care of something while I uhm...did my "business" :P

and then last night, she was laying there next to me and she is just so fucking gorgeous. I was kissing all over her and running my hands up and down that body and she was letting me tease her nipples. I told her how I'd give anything to wrap my lips around one of those soft, pert, pink beauties and latch onto it.

She smiled down at me and shook her head. "You have to earn it!"
I nodded softly, "y...yes Ma'am."
Then she smiled again and said "Okay, but just for a few minutes."

I think it was more because I had turned her on, and less that I had earned it. :P

So I laid there next to her and wrapped my mouth around her soft, pink nipples and suckled for a few minutes, flicking them with my tongue and making sure she was enjoying it.


I have a huge breastfeeding fetish, which is weird because I don't really like the Adult Baby side of ageplay, and I am always kind of worried that it bugs her that I like to...well....suckle, when I'm kissing her breasts.

I asked her about it and she just smiled and reassured me that she did like it.

Which I guess makes sense, because....otherwise, she wouldn't let me. :P

Either way, it was nice. She gave me the pleasure of worshipping her breasts and I'm grateful. Hopefully if I can continue to be a good boy and talk about my feeling instead of getting all stressed and being an ass, I'll get a lot more rewards like that.

Frustration....and not the sexy kind.

So we've been dieting for about a month now.

We had a little party with some friends a while back and we were all hanging out by the pool of our apartment complex. Another tenant was down there as well, and we were all talking and shooting the shit.

This guy is JACKED, and a girl was saying something about him being in the gym all the time, and he mentions that he doesn't even have a gym membership. He just does a lot of pushups, squats, and pullups. Interesting.

So anyway, I've changed my diet to be mostly Paleo, save for the occasional beer and protein bars/powders. It's been working great, and I'm already down about twelve pounds, but I need to start working out again and I just...can't motivate myself to do it.

I'm looking for work, sending out resumes, going to job interviews, waiting for phone calls, and I just can't seem to motivate myself to work out. Maybe us going back and forth from our hometown a bunch has something to do with it, but I think it's just that I've become rather sedentary. I was in REALLY good shape back in 2008, and once I quit the job I had to do something I had gone to school for, the weight came back. I was eating the same 3000 calories but wasn't working out, and was getting them from things like fast food. (the new job didn't allow much anything else)

That, my friends, is a dirty bulk.

So yeah. I'm down twelve pounds, to 274. I can't believe I was nearly 290 pounds...but, being almost 6'4 and having broad shoulders and pretty much big man sized everything hides the weight rather well. People never believe me when I tell them how much I weigh.

I'm going to force myself to start exercising more, even if it's just doing squats and pushups in front of the TV (although pushups with dogs in the house are near impossible) and once I can get back down to 250, and then 235 (where I was when I was working out all the time) I'm going to do something to treat myself. Hopefully if I've found a job by then I can get myself a new guitar, or something like that.

Plus, being healthier is just better all around. This paleo diet has got me feeling pretty drained, as I've heard a lot of low carb diets do for the first month or so when your body is detoxing....but I know it's going to be worth it to rid myself of all these processed foods. Once I've got the money I'm going to try and avoid anything with hormones as well...pretty much go all organic, but that's just not feasible right now.

To recap:
I'm losing weight, FINALLY.
I've been hit with that post-graduation "what do I do now?" thing
If you're in Houston and want a sub guy in chastity to work for you, I'm your man. boy. manboy. something.

spending more time locked.

I'll admit,


I haven't been a very good boy so far in 2012. I'd put on the cage and tease myself with it and then later in the day or night I'd take it off.

A lot of that came from me trying to use the smaller ring on my jailbird. It works perfectly, except...some nights, for whatever reason, it pinches the skin that is in that grey area of not cock/not balls, on the left side of my cock. That happened again last night after two days locked up.

She had fallen asleep on the couch so I took it off and laid down, telling myself I was going to be good and not touch.

We got up this morning (actually this afternoon, we had a late night!) and my cock was SO excited. I told her about the predicament and then I jokingly told her that he was aching for her hand so she teasingly stroked me. God, she does this thing where she just BARELY touches me...like with her palm and then the back of her hand, going from one side to the other. It's so frustrating!

Anyway, after I finally got my cock to uh..calm down, I locked back up, but used the bigger ring. With the bigger ring, I can kinda pull out of it...and with the smaller one, I can't. But as long as I am wearing some nice tighter undies and have got the willpower to not be a naughty boy..(because when I slip out, my balls are still in, so it's kinda obvious lol.) then I can do good.

So, it's day three locked up and probably day five without cumming, and this is longer than I've gone in a LONG time, so it's taken some getting used to. Spent some time yesterday watching porn and I made a little wet spot in my captain american undies.  :D

I've finally got time to post

I have been SO swamped this last semester, but it all paid off. All of the problems I had over the Winter break with the college, the 18 hours worth of classes, all worth it!

I graduated, and am looking for a job now!

AND, because I won't be in classes all day and then going to work afterwards, I'll have more time to post.

anyway, not much has been going on because, like I said, we've both been pretty swamped. I'm excited though, because I know now we'll have more time for things that are blog worthy, and I'll have more time to dedicate towards the blog!

I also got a new collar for our anniversary. We ordered it from CollarFactory, and it's awesome! Their service was great. They were a little backed, because they hadn't received the locking buckles that were part of our order. Anyway, it's awesome. baby blue leather with baby pink faux fur on the inside. It has these little blue teal gems on it, and the locking buckle. It's great! I'll take a picture and post it when I get a chance!

ChasteBoy out!

chastiy haiku

locking up my cock
nestled in her perfect breasts
the key to my heart

Something new for me

A few days ago, Tuesday actually, I texted her and asked to be let out. She told me yes and even let me come because I had been such a good boy. I've been unlocked since then.

So tonight, Mommy is going out with a friend.

We have an open relationship, yes. But she's never expressed a REAL interest in anyone else.
They're going to a movie they've both seen before. We were talking about it over lunch and I got embarrassed and told her I had something to tell her but I couldn't say it, so I texted her.

"Part of me thinks it would be awesome if you locked me up before your date and then around 11:15 or so (when the movie is supposed to let out) II get a text telling me not to wait up or something like that."

Her phone buzzed and she read the text and smiled saying "I just may have to do that."

So I asked her a second ago, if she was really going to like she had said before, and she smiled and said "yes....In fact, why don't you go put it on right now and then come back to me for inspection."

So I did as I was told and locked myself up and then gave her the key and she looked up at me, smiling. She was on the floor messing with some coffee mugs in a shelf. I pulled down my Captain America undies and she smiled and told me I was "such a good boy" as she wrapped her hand around me and kissed my caged cock.

I'm nervous and horny and I don't think anything will happen tonight because she told me earlier she doesn't plan on anything happening, but still....it's hot!

UPDATE

So they just left. He's a big burly bear type guy like myself. (Gee I wonder what her type is!) Pretty handsome. I texted her as they were leaving and told her to ask him if he was bi. We'll see, lol.

Continuing the story...

First part can be found here

I went to sleep that night hornier than I'd ever been. I kept thinking about him, and the picture on his ad. His well groomed, greying hair and his piercing eyes looking right at me, as if he knew exactly what I needed.

He told me not to touch myself...my cock was aching and dripping precum all inside of my boxers. They quickly came off as I flipped over onto my stomach and ground myself against the bed. He never said anything about this!

I was grinding my swollen aching member against the bedsheets, thinking about how long it had been since I had come. Wow, it had nearly been a week! I had forgotten all about myself, having been drowning in schoolwork. The soft sheets felt soooo good against me and I grabbed my pillow tight, moaning softly with pleasure. I knew I wasn't going to be able to come this way, but god it felt so good!

I wanted to come so badly but I knew that if I touched myself....somehow....he'd know. So I flipped over, frustrated, and tried to get to sleep.

Class the next morning was a blur. I don't remember what was going on, I just kept thinking about him. About the things he said to me last night. The way he spoke to me. He knew. He knew exactly who I was. It was so strange. I got done on campus and grabbed some lunch and began to walk home, my mind filled with thoughts about our phone call tonight. What was he going to ask me? What was I going to say? Lost in my own thoughts as I made my way back to the apartment...I got inside and didn't even eat, even though I had been starving before.

I made my way to the bedroom and slipped out of my clothes before hopping on the bed. I could see the spot where I had been grinding myself the night before. It wasn't really there, but it was. Right there on the bed, a little twist of sheets that reminded me of my....willingness...to give up control to him...and I didn't even know him yet.

I laid down and started running my hands over myself. My chest, my stomach...mmmm, my nipples. Every single touch sending impulses to my brain..and right out to my cock. I had to give it up, I was getting too excited. So I lied there in the bed, nude and horny. Aching and throbbing, and leaking from pent up excitement. I glanced over at my alarm clock and it read 1:00...It was going to be a long time until 7.

switching it up

Why don't you faithful readers (or not so faithful, I don't really care) ask me some questions and I will answer them!


That could be fun, right?

alright, hop to it!

Easter weekend

So it's Easter weekend and I've been locked up for.....(I'm so bad at this!) let's say four days. I'm gonna go with Wednesday as the lockup date, it could've been tuesday but meh.

With the webfilter on, I've noticed that I am acting a lot better. I'm not watching porn all day and the things that I do have access to are not things that make me super aroused to that point I was talking about before. I'm able to focus a little bit better and have found myself trying out new things.

I was trimming my facial hair yesterday when I looked down and saw my tummy and chest hair. I'm not a very hairy guy but I think that's just because most of my body hair is blonde-ish. But my tummy and chest are a lot darker. Darker than my facial hair, even. Kind of weird. Anyway, I got a wild hair *chortle* and decided to run my clippers over and trim the hair on my chest and stomach.

which led to me running the clippers all over. I really like the way it feels. I wish I had the money to go get waxed or buy some home waxing stuff. It's a really really different feeling, and being all smooth all over makes me feel even more like a boy.

I took a few pictures because, you know, that's what I do. Speaking of pictures, I have some I wanted to show you guys but kept forgetting to post! So first, one from yesterday and then just a few rando's to keep you readers satiated.

I love size comparison stuff, especially when I'm locked up. I'm not THAT small, but I am definitely a grower, so being locked in a tiny cage makes me look a lot smaller.

This is my favorite of all the ones I snapped the other day. I was leaking quite a lot and it was only my second day in the cage. My poor little cock was so frustrated and wet. I love that feeling. This was the same night that I downloaded the webfilter.

 A site got blocked and it made me suuuuper excited!

Playing with precum. Makes me feel like Stretch Armstrong!

Look how far it goes!

And finally a close up!

A slip up

Remember what I said about willpower?




well I couldn't get to any porn sites on the internet.

but I still had porn on my computer.

:/






So now I deleted all of the videos and captions and things like that. My chastity and gay folders are still there because I don't think those take away from my paying attention to her, and a lot of that stuff I post on imageboards to share with other people who are into chastity.

The only things left are my chastity and gay folders, and the mp3 hypno files I have that are geared towards making me a better sub.

more ways to give up control

You know, my biggest problem wit chastity is my willpower.

I get horny and I watch some porn, which makes me hornier so I watch more until it gets to the point where I just have to rip off my cage and if there is a key in the house with me I WILL find it and I WILL jack off.


Hopefully this has changed.

Someone on an imageboard mentioned using a webfilter.
At first I thought it was stupid, but I let the idea ruminate in my head.

If I can't look up porn without permission, there won't be days where I look at porn until I go insane with lust and rip the cage off.

If I can't look at porn without permission, when I'm horny I might just get up and do something a good boy would do instead of looking at porn like a naughty boy. Maybe I'll take out the trash, or do some dishes, or rub her feet.

So I let it sit and spin around in my head.

I downloaded the program, k9 web protection, just to see what it was about and it has all the bells and whistles. Blocks all tons of content, can block sites based off of certain words in the URL, even has curfew/bedtime restrictions if you want to go that far, and timeouts for when you try and access blocked content too often in a period of time.

So I looked at all the sites I visit regularly and figured out which ones I was using for porn. Can't get to them anymore, that's for sure. I made up a password, "mommysgoodboy" and just typing it in to make changes was getting me excited.

So I went to a website with a random password generator, and covered up the generator with my hand. I created a password and copied it.

closed the window.

pasted the new password into the program.

Made Mommy's email the admin, and sent her an email letting her know what I had done.  (We had briefly discussed it so I knew she'd be onboard.) I pasted the password into her email without looking at it and then deleted the email.

So now I have to be a good boy, I don't have much say in the matter. I already got a time out earlier (but that was because it was blocking https sites and my email was trying to load. Fixed it!) and had to turn off the computer and go to bed.

It was so arousing. I've lost even more control, and if I'm a bad boy and get a timeout or try and get around this thing, it will tattle on me and she'll know.

I'm hoping this will help me continue to become a better boy and maybe give me a reason to exercise a little more at home. (it's a great distraction.)

stream of consciousness erotica because I'm locked and horny.

I had never been with a man before; not like this.

I mean sure, I knew I was bi. I jacked off to guys and watched porn where Masters and boys played together and it always did the trick, but this was different.

I saw his ad on Wednesday and couldn't stand it. I had to reply. The words he used seemed to jump off the screen and call out to me. "Don't be scared, Daddy's here." The title alone sent a shiver down my spine. I clicked to open the next page and there he was. Specks of grey in his charcoal black hair and a neatly trimmed goatee.

"Don't be scared. Daddy's here. Looking for a good boy to come and help me relieve some pressure. Experience with bondage and D/s a must. Boys who are into being teased and denied come right to the front of the line."

Daddy....

Why did it stick with me the way it did? Sure I enjoyed edging myself when I was in the right mood, and  who doesn't love a little teasing from time to time?

I left the ad up in another tab and tried to focus on the paper I was supposed to be writing. "When you're doing business in another country.... I wonder what he means by 'teased and denied?'"

I switched tabs and there he was. My cock twitched and my heart fluttered. My hand slid down my side and into my pocket....I slid my phone out and wrote down the number, my hands quivered as I tried to punch it in.

"This is Dan..."

I hung up. My heart was racing. I couldn't go through with it, this wasn't me. Meeting up with some guy on the internet. Jesus, he was probably a murderer, what's wrong with me?

My phone buzzed and my eyes shot to the screen. Fuck! It was him.

"H...h....hello?"

"It is very impolite to hang up on someone like that, young man."

"uhm.....I....think you have the wrong number..."

"I know exactly who I'm calling."

"I....I'm sorry. I was calling um...about.."

"About the ad."

"Yeah....about the ad....I uh....sorry. I just..."

"You just thought it would be fun to call someone at 12:30 at night and hang up on them?" My eyes shot to the clock. Fuck! I had been working on that paper all night and didn't even realize...

"I...I'm sorry. I was up late working on some things and I saw your ad....and I uh....I just felt like I needed to call."

"Needed to call because?"

"I...well...the uhm...title.....kind of stood out and I...."

"I see."

"yeah..."

"You've never done this before have you?"

"n...no..."

"No what?"

".....No sir." My heart stopped and my skin turned to gooseflesh. I felt it shoot all the way down my spine. How did he....I just...wait...what?

"Good boy. Listen, you sound like an alright kid, but it's after midnight. And it's Wednesday."

"I'm sorry, I just wanted to-"

"It's alright. I'm going to call you back tomorrow, about 7pm. I want you to be ready to talk to me when the phone rings. Think about why you answered my ad and I'm going to have some questions for you. I want you to think really hard and answer them truthfully. Do you understand?"

"Yes Sir."

"I'll talk to you then."

He hung up, and I sighed, letting my eyes close and allowing his voice to swim around my head. I leaned back in the chair and allowed my hands to run over my body.....down my chest and stomach and slipping into my jeans.....I looked at the page in front of me. His hair, his voice...the way he used his voice..the way he knew exactly what to say to make me just.....I grabbed my cock and squeezed, moaning softly.

The phone buzzed a text message and startled me. I almost fell out of the chair trying to grab it. I shook my head and laughed at myself for acting like that. What, who's gonna see me jacking off at 12:30 at night in my own apartment? I unlocked the phone and looked at the text.

"Don't even think about touching yourself."

I'm going to be a Daddy!

No, not like that.

We have a friend who is a total sub and is cute as a button. He's very much into being the pet and we've been talking to him (mostly me but yeah) over the last couple of weeks.

A few days ago I was texting him and getting him all flustered on purpose, pushing his buttons and all of those fun things that you get to do when you switch. I told him that after work I might need a boy to come over and help me relax, and he was very excited for that.

He came over after I got off work and Mommy was already back from class, so we just hung around and talked about all the things that had been going on. Mommy wasn't feeling too great (nothing crazy, having wisdom teeth out soon) so she went to bed and he and I started talking.

We talked about limits, expectations, turn ons and turn offs, all kinds of things you should talk about when you're getting to know your sub a little better.....well he slowly moved closer and closer from his position on the floor across from my chair, and it got to where I was holding him in my lap while he cuddled like a good little pet. We stayed up talking until like 1:30 before we realized what time it was.

Can't wait for him to come over for some playtime. :D

more random musings

I don't know if I mentioned this in a previous post or not, but I kinda met up (online) with a big bro type through a website.

We got to talking last night about the little bro/big bro dynamic and I jokingly said that the only bad thing is that big bro's don't really snuggle one the couch with little bros.

i told him I guess that's why I like Daddy stuff so much and he said he'd be more than happy if I called him Daddy. Then he went on to say it was a shame I wasn't into pet play, and I told him about how actually I enjoyed it, but I like to talk too much to be a total pet. I told him about my life as a neko femboy on SL(before I quit logging) and he apparently saw a spark.

He told me he'd have to call me kitty and I got a little goofy, and he could tell I loved it. So he's been texting me all day, calling me kitty, talking about my little caged kitty cock and I just wish he were actually here so I could snuggle up to him on the couch like a good little kitty boy.

So yesterday at work...

I got sent off by myself to go work on this pump for a few minutes, which meant "go stand by this pump until somebody radios you to turn it on."

I was horny as fuck and had actually locked up in the middle of the night prior to this, so I was feeling a little adventurous.

Apparently I have a bit of an exhibitionist streak in me because I thought about taking a few pictures and it got me SUPER horny. So I unzipped my jeans and waited in exhilaration as cars would pass and I had to time everything just right so I didn't get caught. I snapped a few pics of my cage peaking out of my jeans and sent them to Mommy. Except her phone is wonky and won't receive picture messages so I had to put them on fetlife for her to see them.

She was very pleased. In fact, I think it made her whole day. She's been really depressed and it's gotten to the point where she's going to talk to someone, and after seeing the pictures she was all smiles and telling me what a good boy I was, and how sexy I was, and just being in a generally good mood.

After I got off work, we went out to eat and both got some margaritas, and then headed home to hang out and watch SNL. I jumped in the shower to rinse off the sweat from work and she poked her head in to say "I love you." Then a few minutes later she poked back in again and asked if she could join me(which, we haven't done in forever, mostly because our hot water heater hasn't been fixed yet, lol) and I practically jumped for joy when I said yes.

She slipped into the shower with me and started running her hands all over my body, and made sure to give lots of attention to my caged cock. God she is so hot! I love that feeling of being so horny and so excited and her little dainty hands can hold all of me in them with no problem.

We got out of the shower, watched SNL, and then decided to head to bed where there was more kissing and canoodling and teasing the boy while he pleasured her. Then sleep.






We had a talk recently, because she hasn't been showing much interest in my locking up and she told me it was because it seemed like to me, it was all about the cage and I was focusing everything on that instead of on her. She was right. It's easy to do that when you fetishize something, and when you're actually living it, that's all you think about sometimes, but you have to remember who's numero uno. Who got you there? Who helped you reach this point? Who's the one who really OWNS that cock and balls, and cage?

I'm glad we're at a good point now, and I feel a lot better about my obsessions. :P

random fun tonight

long time no post, life is like that sometimes. :D

Posted some info in a fetish thread on 4chan.

Talked to a Daddy on yahoo and ended up roleplaying and getting him to blow his load.

I love being a good little boy, even if it's online like this. Knowing I'm pleasuring someone with my words,  and they know I'm not going to get to come...and so do I....it's so hot.

plus I saw his cock, and it was gorgeous...so I was drooling about it for most of the time, imagining what it'd be like if I really were doing all the things my hands were typing out.

So I'm gonna graduate in May.

How weird is that?

School has been...what....a good 18 years of my life now?

It's an odd feeling, knowing that this is where it happens. This is the shift.

I'm just babbling and thinking out loud, basically. I'm nervous, and excited, and even more nervous about being able to find work after I get my degree. I know it will work out one way or another, I just have so many things I want to do. I can't get into specifics without being as anonymous as I try to be, obviously, but there are a lot of different paths in front of me and it's a bit overwhelming. I need to take some time this semester and step back out of the box, and look at everything all together.

Anyway, other than that, nothing much is new. Have been talking to someone I went to high school with on Fetlife, and it turns out she's a Mommy too, so that's been fun. I've just been focused on school and getting everything squared away, so that's kept me busy, sorry for being boring!

getting to that point again

spent some time earlier watching videos.... (mostly annamalice stuff, lol) and after a while I got up to go check on something and I decided to walk to the bathroom.


I looked in my undies and to my surprise I was dripping down from my boy-cock. <3



I had forgotten how awesome that was. It seems like everything now is getting me excited.

Especially Tina Fey's sexy little scar. (watching 30 rock!)

Happy New Year!

Another year over, another starts, just like that.

Spent time with Mommy's family this year as opposed to mine. We usually do my family for new year's but...it's a long story...we ended up going to some property her family has and camped out. It was actually the first time we've been able to use our tent without the canopy on top of it, so sleeping out under the stars was awesome!

Now we're back home and enjoying our time before classes start again.

I saw a boy on /d/ who was doing some drawings per request and he's got an awesome blog as well, just archiving all of his drawings. Got one in and wanted to post it and send you guys to him. He does all of these in ballpoint, just little scribble type drawings, but they're awesome....and I'm pretty sure he's about the same type of boy as his main character.

and here's his blog:
http://starboy-d.blogspot.com
Check him out!