Oh wow. Just wow.

Okay so I posted how things were going better and how Mommy has been allowing me more privileges sexually....

Well just a few minutes ago I was allowed to worship her pussy. mmmmmm. She was lying on the couch and beckoned me over, so we started snuggling and kissing and I could tell she was getting excited. I asked, very politely if I "could have the pleasure of kissing her" and she nodded.

I helped her disrobe and even rolled of her socks, and she took those sexy little feet and stuck them up into the air...right in my face...I kissed and sucked on her feet and toes all the while my eyes were stuck on her gorgeous womanhood. She was so wet just from my kissing her neck, it drives me mad just thinking about it.

I knelt down on the couch and started kissing her and eventually we moved to where I was on the floor kneeling (where I should've been all long, lol) and she came really hard. REALLY hard. It was fucking amazing.

Afterwards, I was rinsing my mouth out like a good boy (she likes me to do that afterwards so we can kiss and stuff) and I laid down on the bed and pulled her on top of me and thanked her. She smiled and thanked me for being "such a good little boy", then stood up told to me pick some stuff up.

I whimpered because I wanted some attention and she told me to stop, and then I was told again to do the thing she asked. I whined a little more and she motioned that I was going to get spanked and told me to stand.... I hesitated and she started counting.

"1...."

"...2..."
"......3"
She grabbed my hair really fucking hard and pulled me up to her, and then spanked my bottom...which only really turned me on more. I told her how much I loved when she did that and she took the opportunity to pull my head around a little more and made me kiss her.


So I did what I was told, and then she told me to go sit on the couch so I could rub her feet, and then after a couple minutes of foot rubbing I could feel it.

that...

that....sign.....

that submissive boy feeling...when you can't even control your own little penis....

and I knew I was leaking for her.

Life gets in the way again

I've been really stressed out lately.

Graduating college, looking for work....Only getting two interviews in the two months I've been looking....

and it's really gotten to me. Apparently I was being kind of an asshole kind of a lot.

We talked about it in depth the other day and she was explaining how it was making her feel and I felt pretty horrible about it all.

Of course she hasn't been in the mood for anything kinky since.


....but yesterday I asked if I could be naughty and she said yes. She unlocked me and then went into another room to take care of something while I uhm...did my "business" :P

and then last night, she was laying there next to me and she is just so fucking gorgeous. I was kissing all over her and running my hands up and down that body and she was letting me tease her nipples. I told her how I'd give anything to wrap my lips around one of those soft, pert, pink beauties and latch onto it.

She smiled down at me and shook her head. "You have to earn it!"
I nodded softly, "y...yes Ma'am."
Then she smiled again and said "Okay, but just for a few minutes."

I think it was more because I had turned her on, and less that I had earned it. :P

So I laid there next to her and wrapped my mouth around her soft, pink nipples and suckled for a few minutes, flicking them with my tongue and making sure she was enjoying it.


I have a huge breastfeeding fetish, which is weird because I don't really like the Adult Baby side of ageplay, and I am always kind of worried that it bugs her that I like to...well....suckle, when I'm kissing her breasts.

I asked her about it and she just smiled and reassured me that she did like it.

Which I guess makes sense, because....otherwise, she wouldn't let me. :P

Either way, it was nice. She gave me the pleasure of worshipping her breasts and I'm grateful. Hopefully if I can continue to be a good boy and talk about my feeling instead of getting all stressed and being an ass, I'll get a lot more rewards like that.

Frustration....and not the sexy kind.

So we've been dieting for about a month now.

We had a little party with some friends a while back and we were all hanging out by the pool of our apartment complex. Another tenant was down there as well, and we were all talking and shooting the shit.

This guy is JACKED, and a girl was saying something about him being in the gym all the time, and he mentions that he doesn't even have a gym membership. He just does a lot of pushups, squats, and pullups. Interesting.

So anyway, I've changed my diet to be mostly Paleo, save for the occasional beer and protein bars/powders. It's been working great, and I'm already down about twelve pounds, but I need to start working out again and I just...can't motivate myself to do it.

I'm looking for work, sending out resumes, going to job interviews, waiting for phone calls, and I just can't seem to motivate myself to work out. Maybe us going back and forth from our hometown a bunch has something to do with it, but I think it's just that I've become rather sedentary. I was in REALLY good shape back in 2008, and once I quit the job I had to do something I had gone to school for, the weight came back. I was eating the same 3000 calories but wasn't working out, and was getting them from things like fast food. (the new job didn't allow much anything else)

That, my friends, is a dirty bulk.

So yeah. I'm down twelve pounds, to 274. I can't believe I was nearly 290 pounds...but, being almost 6'4 and having broad shoulders and pretty much big man sized everything hides the weight rather well. People never believe me when I tell them how much I weigh.

I'm going to force myself to start exercising more, even if it's just doing squats and pushups in front of the TV (although pushups with dogs in the house are near impossible) and once I can get back down to 250, and then 235 (where I was when I was working out all the time) I'm going to do something to treat myself. Hopefully if I've found a job by then I can get myself a new guitar, or something like that.

Plus, being healthier is just better all around. This paleo diet has got me feeling pretty drained, as I've heard a lot of low carb diets do for the first month or so when your body is detoxing....but I know it's going to be worth it to rid myself of all these processed foods. Once I've got the money I'm going to try and avoid anything with hormones as well...pretty much go all organic, but that's just not feasible right now.

To recap:
I'm losing weight, FINALLY.
I've been hit with that post-graduation "what do I do now?" thing
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